Saturday, December 01, 2007

Updates!

Hello all! I apologize for such a long delay in postings. The last several months were spent working on the new website, preparing for speaking engagements, and seriously formulating concepts.

My website www.lostorigins.com is up and running. The site is loaded with sights and sounds so check it out and let me know what you think.

For a quick update, I have my first photo show here in DC In Dec. All info is on the new site. In October, I spent an amazing week in Maine attending a documentary film development workshop taught by Jack McDonald. It was very hard work but I plan to have a proposal finished by the end of the year. I meet with the Syrian Embassy next week to further discuss my book and to begin preparing for the next trip. I plan to return to Syria 2 times next year. The first trip will solely focus on photography for the book which I've named Aleppo: The Essence of Syria . And the trip second is going to finally record the chants and begin gathering footage for the documentary.

The week after next I have a meeting with Professor Bryan Spinks at Yale Institute of Sacred Music to discuss collaborating on a second book. I'll hopefully schedule a meeting with a professor from Harvard for reasons I'll discuss very soon.

Things are beginning to settle so I'll have time to update and begin to put down some of the chaos from the last trip to Syria. Let's do this!

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Back in the Saddle

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This photo was taken at the Grand Mufti's house in Damascus. We spent a good hour discussing ideas and agreeing to work with each other on a documentary film about Christians and Muslims in modern day Syria.

It’s been a long time since I have updated this blog. I’m not getting lazy, just getting much much busier. Here’s an update of my doings.


1. I’ve been working with indierockmedia.com building my new website , lostorigins.com. The site isn’t live yet, but you can Click Here For a Sneak Peak

2. Lexar Media, Inc. has taken me on as on of their professional photographers. You can see my bio here and read an article I wrote for them here. I’ll be writing an article in August going into detail on my approach to low light photography.

3. I have been asked to give four presentations on my projects in Syria. The first presentation will be this Friday, July 27th, in NYC for the American Mideast Leadership Network. The AMLP has asked to me to share my experiences as an American in Syria at the orientation of the United States-Syria Future Leaders Program. The American Mideast Leadership Network created the United States-Syria Future Leaders Program “To help address misconception and to foster a more realistic observation of the true American spirit, the AMLN has initiated the United States-Syria Future Leaders Program, the first ever exchange program of its kind. Through the initial exchange of this two-week program, to take place in Syria this summer, a diverse group of Syrian and American university students will have the opportunity for the first time to interact with each other and act as ambassadors for their countries. The student ambassadors will participate in discussions, lectures, tourist excursions, and cultural outings in order to comprehend and share their respective cultural, religious heritages with on another. We anticipate that both groups of students will break through ideological and cultural walls that separate them as they gain a better appreciation for the local culture.”

The Second presentation will be held on Saturday August 4th at St. Aphraim Syriac Orthodox Church in Washington, DC. I will be giving a multimedia presentation on my projects focusing on the chant. This is the little blurb the church wrote: “Jason has been on an adventurous journey that has taken him from Tur Abdin in Turkey and into Aleppo, Syria. His fascination with the vibrant culture of that region thrust him to document and preserve the heritage and habits of the local people. He is currently on a mission to record, for the first time, the sounds of the liturgy of the Syriac Church in Aleppo, the only remaining church with direct roots to Edessa (modern Urfa, Turkey). Through his lens and recordings, Jason will take us on a lively voyage into the ancestry of the Syriac ‘Edessian’ Church and into modern Aleppo. Join us in this exciting presentation; perhaps we will be able to hear the sounds of St. Ephraim echoing again!”

The dates for the third and fourth presentations have not been solidified but will be held at All Souls Episcopal Church in DC and Georgetown University.

4. The Presbyterian Outlook has asked for an article focusing on the chant project. I've submitted a concept draft and waiting to hear back for editorial direction.

5. St. Aphraim Syriac Orthodox Church in Washington, DC has asked me to record a How to Speak Syriac Aramaic CD. I will engineer the recordings as well as provide the English voice.

6. The Washington DC Jewish Community Center has requested I submit a formal proposal for a possible art show showcasing the photographs of Aleppo’s Great Synagogue.

7. Jenny and I have been working on our garden and I’ve been watering plants between 20-30 minutes every other day.

8. Some of the guys and I have decided to go shark fishing this Sunday July 29. We’re heading out to Montauk, NY and getting aboard the Blu Fin IV with Captain Michael Potts. This guy’s been fishing the waters off Montauk his whole life. His father began charter fishing in 1944! It should be awesome! Sunday night is the beginning of Shark week on Discovery Channel. We plan to watch Ocean of Fear: Worst Shark Attack Ever “A dramatic documentary featuring the story of the of the USS Indianapolis in World War II. Explore the sinking and the horrifying shark attacks that cost hundreds of soldiers' lives.” Just a little something to stir the nerves before facing the man-eating residents of Neptune’s kingdom!

Click here to see a slideshow of me getting shaved in Syria!

Thursday, May 10, 2007

I'm home and tired

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This last trip to Syria was one of the most intense trips of my life. There were only 3 nights that I slept longer than 5 hours and several where I slept under 3. By day's end I was just to wiped out to write. I did write one entry the first couple of days there when my energy was still high. I'll be writing several stories as I get the time and posting them along the way. To get up to speed:

1. The trip was very successful. The Archbishop and Grand Mufti have both signed a document agreeing to work with me on a documentary film

2. I have been accepted as one of the Lexar professional photographers and will be featured this coming month on their web site. I'll be writing an article on my trip that will be posted anlong with a bio and a headshot later this month.

3. My new website, www.lostorigins.com is close to being up and running

4. While I was gone, Alternative Press published two new articles, one is on stretching, and the other on punk places to visit in DC.

5. I've been asked to give a presentation at ST. George’s Syrian Orthodox Church here in DC sometime in July. Details will follow.

6. I am still working on the photo book of Aleppo but was asked to do a 2nd book on the ordination of the Archbishop of Holland which we filmed and photographed on April 15th. Details will follow.

7. Samson Audio has sponsored the project and donated 2 Zoom H4 audio recorders, 2 CL8 microphones, and 2 BL3 stands that I used on this last trip. Links will follow soon.

8. It looks like I'll be heading back in August for a month to finally do the recordings. Finances are a problem, so I don't know details on that either.

9. I was asked this morning to write a piece for The Presbyterian Outlook about my trip and interest with the project.


3/30/07

It’s 5:52 here in Aleppo. I am staying in a midsized room on the 7th floor of the building located next to the Archdiocese. Things have been going great so far. It never ceases to amaze me to watch God’s hand in all of this.

I flew from DC to Vienna, Austria then to Damascus where my ticket ended. I was supposed to buy a $25 flight from Damascus to Aleppo once I got o the airport. I babbled through a conversation with Syrian Air about buying a ticket. The plane was oversold and they were taking stand-by reservations. The woman behind the counter didn’t lead me to think that I’ll be getting on a plane Aleppo.

I promised Jenny that I wouldn’t take a bus so plan B was to drive. There were a handful of rental companies in the terminal the most familiar being Budget Rent A Car. They offered me a nice car and driver for $100. Not a bad price for a 4-hour cab ride, but I wanted to drive myself and didn’t want to pay $100. They suggested asking one of the “other” companies. I got the same price from them as well. One man was nice enough to call the airline and he said they had plane. I thanked him and hauled my things back over to Syrian Air.

I got the same answer. “The plane is full.” I handed the man behind the counter my official letter from Archbishop Mor Karim in NJ. After he read this he said, “Mr. Jason I will help you.”
“Do you think I’ll make the plane?”
“It is your gamble. But I have a good feeling.”
I paid him $25 and he handed me an e-ticket. Several people swarmed the desk as I was waiting. I didn’t get to say a proper good-bye. I waited awkwardly off to the side of the counter. Time was fleeting, so I waved and headed to the gate.

I made it through 2 security stops and approached the check-in counter. When I gave the guy my ticket, he gruffly shoved it back at me. I pointed to the paper and he shook his head no. The man behind me said, “No room.”
I just paid $25 and expected to get on a plane. This confusion went on for at least 10 minutes. The man behind the counter pointed to a code on the paper and the man behind me said. “Not confirmed.” I got hopes up for nothing. The ticket agent pointed to a place for me to sit and wait. I took out my letter but they wouldn’t read it. I couldn’t do anything but sit and watch to clock.

I was confused, frustrated, and exhausted. To my luck, a man wearing a Syrian Orthodox Monk Hood walked into the departure area. I took out my letter.

“Are you Syrian Orthodox?”
“Yes.”
“I need some help. My name is Jason. I’m from Washington D.C. and I’m doing a project with your church. I’m supposed to be flying to Aleppo in a few minutes. I bought this ticket but can’t get on the plane. Are you a priest?”
“I am a Bishop. My name is Malaki.”
“Where do you live?”
“I am the bishop of Australia.”
I asked, “Are you visiting?”
“I went to Germany for a few weeks and have been in Damascus. I am leaving back to Australia now.” I couldn’t believe it.
He asked, “Do you have any Syrian money?”
“No.”
Bishop Malaki gave me 2000 Syrian pounds ($40).
“I have US dollars please take…”
“Do not worry about it. It’s okay.” He led me over to the ticket counter and spoke with the man. “You are first on the list. If you do not make the flight I gave you enough money for a taxi to the Pullman (bus) station. From there you can catch a Pullman to Aleppo and be there in 4 hours.”
“Thank you so much!”
“Please give my regards to Mor Gregorios. You must excuse me; I need to catch my plane. God Bless you.” (which he did.) We shook hands and he briskly disappeared.

I waited anxiously hoping to get called to the ticket counter. Time was molasses.
A minute later I was handed a boarding pass and was on way to Aleppo.

Someone from the Church was supposed to meet me at the airport but that didn’t happen. I got a cab but couldn’t tell the driver where to go. I showed him the Bishop’s business card but it didn’t do any good. We weaved our way into the city. We stopped several times trying to find our way. No one could understand the little Arabic I spoke and had a hard time reading the Bishop’s business card. The 5th person we stopped knew the church and gave us directions. I arrived tired and relieved.

There was no one answering the intercom at the Church but a curious guy introduced himself in Arabic. I embarrassingly admitted to not speaking the language and he asked if I spoke English. “Yes, thank you. My name is Jason and I just flew here from Washington DC. I am a guest of the bishop but can’t get a hold of anyone.”
“Are you hungry?”
“Very.”
“Let’s get something to eat. What would you like?”
“Za’ater. It’s my favorite.” Za’ater is an amazing blend of spices that is sold on the street served in hot bread. It’s the proof of God.
We walked a couple of blocks and he treated me to 2 Za’ater sandwiches. It was exactly what I needed after the long trip.

We walked back to the church and finally got through to the Bishop. I was welcomed in and taken up to my new home on the 7th floor of the apartment building next to the church. My day ended with the surprise of seeing several of the sub-deacons from last year. We had a great welcome back dinner and then I went to sleep.

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Here we go again!

I return to Syria on March 27th for a month to take photos, film, and plan the chant recordings. The Syrian Ambassador has reviewed the project and has decided to sponsor the publishing of an Aleppo coffee table book made of my photography. I will be photographing every aspect of Aleppo. “We will unlock the city for you to document everything the city has to offer.” In addition to various aspects of the city, I will be photographing all Muslim, Christian, and Jewish celebrations. Yale professor, Bryan Spinks, has agreed to co-write the text with me and we are discussing submitting the book through the Institute Of Sacred Music to the Yale University Press but a publisher has not yet been chosen.

I have brought on Asa Palmer to film this upcoming trip. In Damascus we are going to film the ordination of the Archbishop to the Netherlands and in Aleppo we will film a traditional Edessian Sunday liturgy. These two films will complete my obligations with the Yale Institute of Sacred Music.

The Archbishop is going to set up a meeting with himself, The Grand Mufti of Syria, Ahmad Badr Eddin-Hassoun, and I to discuss my documentary ideas.

I am excited to announce renowned videographer, Ryan Hill, and Emmy Award winning writer/ producer Jack McDonald have agreed to join the project. Ryan is a camera veteran and has traveled the world filming for PBS, National Geographic, Animal Planet, NBC, HGTV, and The Discovery Channel. Jack has been in the business for years. He started out at CBS as a news assistant then moved on to become a news editor/ reporter for Time. Over the years he’s written and produced numerous shows for The Discovery Channel, National Geographic, The Learning Channel, and TBS. In 1994 his "Surviving Everest” won the Emmy Award for Best Historical Segment and in 2005 his film “Messingers” won Best Documentary Short at the Crossroads Film Festival. We will be getting together when I get home to review ideas and begin working on a documentary treatment.

I had to change the name of my production company from Blue Flame Media to Lost Origin Productions. Indie Rock Media has agreed to build the website, www.lostorigins.com, and I hope to have it up very soon.

Lexar has agreed to sponsor the project and is donating several high capacity compact flash and SD memory cards. In return I will be featured on there prophotography website and will provide images and an article when I return in April.

I have been doing a ton of photo work this year. My most recent publishing credit is the Syrian Embassy included one of my photos in a cultural report for the Washington Diplomat. Earlier this week I traveled to NJ and shot the press photos for Dillinger Escape Plan’s new record. Back in Feb. I shot the Spring Collection for Klinger Advanced Aesthetics,
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and just finished working with renowned real estate agent, Rita Halstead, for her forth coming international marketing campaign.

I just finished a second “Stretching for Musicians” piece for Alternative Press and am in the revision process for an article for Massage and Bodywork magazine. I am working on piece for A.P. on the history of mid-late 90’s hardcore with Hatebreed, Locust, Converge, and Dillinger Escape Plan.

At the beginning of the year I was invited to begin the review process for the Back in early January I had a meeting with the manager of the National Geographic Emerging Explorers program. He was very excited about the project and wanted me to apply for the Explores Grant. It is a committee decision and after eight weeks they finally rejected the project. The rejection didn’t hurt or hinder the project but it would’ve been cool had it come through.

Dear Mr. Hamacher,

Thank you for your pre-application expressing interest in a grant from the
National Geographic Society's Expeditions Council. We appreciate the
opportunity to review your request for support for your project, "The
Urfalee Preservation Initiative; exploring Syria's Christian-Muslim
relationship by illuminating the history, traditions, and culture of St.
George's Syrian Orthodox Church, located in Aleppo, Syria." While we
understand the importance of your efforts, regretfully, we must decline
participation.

The constraints of our budget, current editorial requirements, and the
timing of each project limit us to supporting only a select number of
projects each year.

I regret that we are unable to extend support. I do, however, wish you
every success and hope you will be able to secure the funding you need for
your endeavor.

Sincerely,

Program Officer
Expeditions Council
National Geographic Society

In addition to all of this, Jenny and I are loving our house and hating the gas bill. We welcome spring with open arms and empty wallets.

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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Our Tree is up!!!

We bought a real Christmas tree this year and it smells amazing!

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Tuesday, December 12, 2006

San Francisco Photos

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I've finally edited the photos from our trip to San Francisco back in October. Check them out

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Monday, December 11, 2006

Mexico Photos Up

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It has been a month since I went to mexico and it was fantastic. The cavern certification course was much harder than I expected. It used different equipment as well as different swimming and rescue techniques. Each skill compouned and commanded extreme concentration. I got through it and loved it. I spent my down time working on an article for Massage & Bodywork magazine and watching movies on my laptop. It was exactly what I needed to recharge. Click Here For Tulum Slideshow

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Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Back Under Water

Every year or two I need to go on a solo adventure to reset and recharge. I have decided to take a little break from house and home and head to Mexico to become a certified cavern scuba diver. I got my open water and advanced open water certifications in Egypt in 2001 but I’ve only been diving once since then.

I'll fly into Cancun on Nov 12th and plan on spending the day in Playa Del Carmen. I’ll find a ride south, to Tulum, where I’ll spend the next 4 days and nights learning how to explore underground caverns filled with water.

Television Idea

This is one of my ideas for a television show. I have submitted it to one production house and was turned down. I am in the midst of researching different production houses to see where it might fit. Please contact me with ideas or suggestions.

Proposal: Urfalee Project

“Americans know less about Eastern Christianity than they do about Islam, and they don’t know anything about Islam.”
-Dr. Sidney Griffith, The Department of Semitic and Egyptian Languages and Literatures, The Catholic University of America

To many Americans saturated by sensationalized Western journalism, Syria is little more than a terror-supporting member of the so-called "Axis of Evil.” To the Aramaic-speaking Urfalees who belong to the dwindling Christian community of St. George’s Church, Syria is a refuge for their ancient Christian traditions, stretching back thousands of years to the dawn of the Christian era. Syria’s Orthodox Christian minority has not only persevered, but flourished, in a region of the world plagued by civil, religious and ethnic strife fueled by fundamentalism, international wars and terrorism.

• How has this small sect of Eastern Christianity survived in a 90% Muslim land?
• And how does the nation of Syria make this unique situation possible?

On August 14th I met with the Syrian Ambassador to the United States, Dr. Imad Moustapha, and was enthusiastically granted permission and support from the embassy and government to explore Syria’s surprisingly strong Muslim-Christian relations. I have also established an excellent relationship with the Syriac Orthodox Archbishop of Aleppo, who has given his blessings to the project, thereby opening many doors into the actual workings of the church in Syria.

I plan to further gain insight into this multifarious topic by going to Syria and interviewing the individuals who belong to the church community, as well as several important Syrian figures, including:

• Archbishop Mor Gregorius Yohanna Ibrahim, Metropolitan of Allepo
• The Grand Mufti of the Republic, Dr. Sheikh Ahmad Badruddin Hassoun
• President of Syria, Bashar Al-Assad

I will also attempt to get a feel for the rhythms of life in Syria, focusing primarily on how the Syriac Christians live, maintaining their distinct identity inside the norms of life in a Muslim-dominated society. Among the distinctive practices are not only their church services, so different from Muslim worship, but also through more personal aspects, such as the folk songs and festivities unknown to the bulk of the Syrian community.

A program featuring my research and experiences with the Syriac Orthodox communities would not only be entertaining, but could also help the American public learn a great deal about our own social (mis)understandings and biases about the rest of the world. Such a program would be unique, blending Syria’s history, land, and religion with candid conversation between a young American, Syria’s leadership and the people of this unique land.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

You are in Syria. This is the Embassy

One of Jenny’s old coworkers is Syrian and knows the Ambassador well enough to have his family over for dinner often. last February, I asked if she could email my project proposal to the Ambassador with a good word. Her husband did the favor but I never heard anything from it so I figured the Embassy wasn’t into my idea.
Back in April I had a meeting with both Archbishops to review my findings from the first trip to Aleppo and to discuss the next steps. They gave me full run with my ideas. To my excitement I was granted permission to release cd, TV show, documentary, whatever. We all agreed that the next step was getting approval from the Syrian government, but they felt it may be difficult. I agreed.
I came home from the meeting and decided to call the Syrian Embassy here in DC to introduce myself.
I’ve never had a problem cold calling, so I got the number off the internet and tried to call the Ambassador directly. I navigated through several prompts before reaching the his secretary.
“How may I help you?” She cordially asked.
“My name is Jason Hamacher. I am involved with a project with the Syrian Orthodox Church in Aleppo. Dr. Aman, A mutual friend of the Ambassador and myself, emailed a copy of my proposal to the Ambassador a couple of months back. I was hoping to meet with the Ambassador to discuss to the project.”
“The Ambassador is out of town at the moment. He should be back in ten days. If you could fax a copy of your proposal to our office, I’ll make sure he gets it.” She sounded optimistic.
“Sounds good. I’ll fax it over today. Thank you very much.” I got off the phone and drafted an introductory letter. It took me a week to write the thing. This is what I came up with:

“Dear Sir or Madam:

I write to request a meeting with the Ambassador. I am in the beginnings stages of a project with the Syrian Orthodox Archdiocese of Aleppo and Archbishop Mor Gregorios and mutual friend Dr. Aman have both encouraged me to contact the Ambassador directly to discuss my ideas. I would like explore the relationships between Archbishop Mor Gregorios, the Mufti and the President of Syria. I feel that the public and private relationship between Archbishop and the Mufti is one to be admired and could be used as a role model for tolerance here in the US. I would also like to discuss with the President, his ideas and philosophies on governing Syria’s religious state. I am not a journalist or a student, just a young enthusiastic Christian eager to make a difference. Western Christians can learn a great deal from our Eastern heritage and I feel Syria is the best country to use as an example. I have attached the formal proposal describing the other aspects of my project. I look forward to hearing from you soon.”

It was faxed it on May 17th. I called the following day to confirm they received it. The Ambassador was unfortunately out of town. I was encouraged to call back in two weeks. I called but missed him again.
“You can try back in ten days. He should be available then.”
By this time Jenny and I were house hunting with every free moment and I let things slip. I kept calling and missing the Ambassador for weeks. I called on July 17th
“Hello, this is Jason Hamacher calling for the Ambassador. I was wondering if he has he gotten the chance to review my proposal?”
“Hello Mr. Hamacher. Unfortunately the ambassador has not had the time to review your proposal.” The woman pleasantly responded.
“No problem. When would be a good time to call back and follow up.” I asked.
“I don’t know if you’ve been watching the news, but we are pretty busy these days.” She didn’t come across condescending just stating the facts. I was horrifically embarrassed. Israel began bombing Lebanon several days before and Syria was in the hot seat for allegedly allowing Iran to supply weapons to Hezbollah through their territory.
“I am so sorry! I should’ve thought of that before I called. I’ll call back when the war calms down.” When the war calms down? I couldn’t believe that came out of my mouth. She didn’t acknowledge my remark, thanked me and then got off the phone. I had surely ruined my future with the Syrian Embassy.
The next month was spent settling into our new job and house. I was slammed with unpacking, arranging, installing, assembling, and fixing. I was perpetually on hold or trouble shooting with every tech support guy for days. Jenny and I were stressed beyond description but everything was coming together.
Thursday August 10th during lunch my phone rang. It was from a nameless DC number. So I answered.
“Hello?”
“Hello, name is Ahmed, I am from the Syrian Embassy, may I speak to Jason Hamacher please.”
I was excited but nervous. Israel and Lebanon were bombing the hell out of each other and Syria was all over the news. Why was I getting a call? “This is Jason.”
“I work with the Ambassador and have gone over your proposal and think you have a good project.”
We talked for fifteen minutes going over all of my ideas and concepts. To my surprise Ahmed was in his mid-twenties, from Aleppo, and had many Christian friends. He thought the project had great merit and wanted to arrange a meeting with the Ambassador.
“When are you available to meet with the Ambassador?” He asked.
“My days off are Sunday, Monday and Tuesday mornings.”
“Great, I’ll go over the Ambassador’s schedule and call back with some possibilities.” Things were looking good. Ahmed called the following day and set a meeting for Monday, August 14th.
I couldn’t sleep Sunday night. If the meeting didn’t go well the project could be canceled. I woke up Monday morning exhausted. I put on my suite, gathered my portfolio, kissed my wife and drove down to the Embassy. I called my dad and said a prayer before stepping out of the car.
I walked around to the Consular basement entrance and hit the door bell.

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The door buzzed opened. I stepped into a dim room with low ceilings. A larger plexi glass window separated me from a man sitting at a desk. “How can I help you?” He asked with think Arabic accent.
“ I have a meeting with the Ambassador. My name is Jason Hamacher.”
“Have a seat Mr. Hamacher.” He pointed toward a small waiting area decorated with faded tourism posters. There was a couch, coffee table, a few chairs, and a water cooler. I took the couch and picked up a news paper. A large man, who I thought might be Ahmed, entered the room and asked me to follow him. He was in a suite and looked like Syria’s smaller version of The Rock. I followed him outside and around to the front of the building. The Embassy is an old DC stand alone brick house with white trim and a large front yard surrounded by a tall black iron fence. He unlocked the gates and we approached the front door. We chatted a bit on the way in and I was directed to sit in the salon. It was very reminiscent of the informal meeting areas of both Archbishops. I sank into the couch and the thick gentleman asked, “Would you like a tea or a Turkish coffee?”
“Now I really feel like I’m in Syria. I’ll take a coffee” I said with a laugh.
“You are in Syria. This is the Embassy.” I felt stupid. I forgot that an embassy is technically soil of that country. Nice diplomacy.
I had been freaking out wondering how to address the Ambassador. Was it Ambassador, Mr. Ambassador, Dr Moustapha, I had no idea. My head was spinning as I sat waiting in a foreign country that happened to be in my neighborhood. Ahmed walked in and introduced himself. We spoke for a minute or two and then the Ambassador walked in. We both stood and I shook the ambassador’s hand. Before I could say anything Mr. Ambassador beat me to it. I never officially addressed him. It was to late so I went forward.
“How can we help you?” He asked with a smile while gesturing for us to sit down.
“I presume that you have reviewed my proposal, so I am here to discuss your thoughts and to seek permission to execute this project.”
“Permission is not a problem. Tell me your ideas.” It was that easy. I had permission within the first 60 seconds! His demeanor was very pleasant. I was expecting a stern individual but he seemed dignified yet down to earth. I felt welcome.
I went into my whole deal. What was nerve racking was thinking how to be diplomatic while still getting my point across.
“We both know Syria hasn’t been getting the best press lately. I find it interesting that our president has claimed to be Christian and yet your country, an “Enemy” (I gestured with quotes) houses one of the oldest surviving forms of Christianity. I think that we as a nation can learn from the examples of tolerance shown by the religious leaders of Aleppo.” I spoke with confidence but was pretty sure they could hear my heart beating. The Ambassador nodded his head with understanding, calming my anxiety. “I am requesting your permission because three or four young Americans showing up to Syria with a plane full of electronics won’t look to good at the border.” I said with a slight laugh.
“Of course. You will be fine just as long as you don’t bring any tooth paste or liquid with you.” He said smiling. We all laughed. The Ambassador was also funny! This was turning into a hang out. One of the reasons he liked the project was because Aleppo gets little coverage. Most of the media covers Damascus and that tended to be mostly negative. “Who did you meet while in Aleppo?” He asked.
“Several people. It was the week of the big Islamic Cultural celebration. I have photos if you want to see.” I offered.
“I love photography.” He began looking through my portfolio. “Your pictures are great. They are more than pictures. They tell a story. I would love to display some of these here at the embassy.”
“Thank you very much. I am in the process of making a photo book of all my photos from Aleppo and I can bring it by when I’m done. That way you can choose which photos you would like prints of.” I was beyond excited.
I also wanted to discuss the possibility of filming a documentary TV show or movie as well. My goal is to research the strong Christian- Muslim relationship in Aleppo. I have permission from the Church and I hope to interview Grand Mufti Dr. Sheikh Ahmad Badruddin Hassoun, and with your help, President Assad.”
“What would you speak with the President concerning?”
“I am looking to discuss his ideas on these old Christian tradition and his thoughts on governing a 90% Muslim country with a highly respected and, for the most part tolerated, Christian minority.”
“I think this is a good idea. An Interview would be tricky, but not out of the question. I think we will have to show him some footage or progress of the project before he agrees. You know some people have a hidden agenda and try and paint our country in a different light.”
I nervously responded, “I would like to clear that my intentions are cultural not political. I could have all my questions written out before hand of that would help.”
“I understand.” He said with a comforting nod. “Mr. Hamacher you have not only permission but support of the Embassy and Syrian Government. If you need assistance in Syria I can help arrange support for you there. You will be able to freely enter our country with your equipment.”
I lost 100 pounds. “Thank you very much!”
“If you need anything else we can talk again. Not just regarding the three issues we have discussed, but anything. Continue to liaise with Ahmed and I look forward to seeing your project unfold. Is there anything else we can help you with?”
“I think we’re good. Thank you for taking time to speak with me.”
We stood up and shook hands.
“You’re welcome anytime.” and he exited the room.
I just crossed the finish line of an emotional marathon. Ahmed and I recapped a little as he walked me to the gates. We shook hands. I walked slowly to my car trying to keep composure. Once inside I prayed in utter joy and then called my Dad. The 7 minute drive back to my house felt different. After years of touring, chaos, and adventure I finally felt like I was heading down God’s path. I felt like everything that I have done has prepared me for this project. I just have to keep on going.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Let's do Yale.

Getting ready for Yale Meeting

Several months ago, I began hunting around to see if any of the ivy league Universities would have interest in the Urfalee Project. My research method was to go to a university’s website and go through all the departments hunting for anything that might hold interest. Next, I would go through the department’s curriculum looking for any class that might cover some aspect of my project. Then I would go through the faculty, starting with the department chair, hoping to uncover anything that might translate into interest for the project.
First, I looked at Princeton and came across nothing solid. Next was Harvard, then Yale. Yale had a Department of Sacred Music, perfect. The Chair of the department specialized in Liturgics, exactly what I was planning to record. On top of that, his interest was Syrian Liturgy. This was a man I needed to contact. I got his number off the web and left him a message.
“Hello, my name is Jason Hamacher. I came across your CV online and understand you are interested in Syrian liturgy. I am doing a project with the Syrian Orthodox Church recording their oldest form of Liturgy, and was wondering if Yale would have any interest in a project like this. If so give me a call.” I left my number and never expected to heard from him.
The next day I was on my way to NJ to meet with the Syrian Orthodox Archbishop of the Eastern US and to take some photos of Dillinger Escape Plan for an article I was writing for Alternative Press magazine. Some where in Delaware my phone rang.
“May I speak to Jason Hamacher?” A calm British accent took me by surprise. “This is Professor Spinks from Yale Institute of Sacred Music.”
“This is Jason. Thank you for calling me back.” I nervously replied.
“ I received your message and am very curious to hear about your project.”
“I’m actually on the way to meet with the Archbishop.” We spent the next twenty minutes going over my concepts. Yale did not have any film footage of the Syrian Orthodox Church in their archives and was highly interested in discussing making a video for their archives. The conversation ended with a promise to email my proposal, capture some video footage, and reconnect after my first trip to Syria.
After lunch on Easter Sunday I drove directly to New Haven, Connecticut for my big meeting with Yale’s Institute of Sacred Music.I was armed with a DVD of rough video footage and my photography portfolio. The meeting was going to be at Yale Divinity School which was located off the main campus. The red brick with white trim buildings weren’t particularly inspiring.

Yale Sacred School Of Music

I checked in and was asked to “Have a seat. The Professor will be down in a moment.” I spent the next several minutes enthralled by a glass display case that housed ancient biblical artifacts.
The Professor entered the room and introduced himself. He was wearing a blazer, I was wearing a black suit. His comforting voice fit perfectly, no ego, no attitude. I was escorted down a white cinderblock hall way to a small conference room. We chit chatted a bit and then the rest of the faculty came in bearing pizzas and drinks. There were four of them, the Professor, his Colleague, the Accountant, and an AV student. There were introductions and then we went straight to reviewing the video footage. The lights went out and we ate pizza and watched my second rate video work.
After the viewing, the Colleague asked, “How long have you been an ethnomusicologist?”
Smiling at this presumption I replied, “I’m not an ethnomusicologist.”
“My husband is so-and-so.” She replied. Silence fell. I had no idea who he was. “He’s a renowned musicologist in the field of religious recordings.” It was officially awkward.
Confused, I limply replied, “That’s great.”
“What field is your degree in?” She asked.
“I don’t have a degree. I’m actually a rock drummer and massage therapist.” I said nervously smiling.
“How did you become interested in this?” She replied. So then I went into my whole story for the group.
After my explanation the Professor went over the ideas he had for the project. They wanted a film of a formal liturgy His Colleague, was quick to insert that a formal contract would have to be signed and I would have to submit a budget. Thanks.
I had discussed the filming concept with Mor Gregorios, Archbishop of Aleppo, and he said it would not be a problem. He went as far as to offer a special service for filming purposes. He offered to perform a traditional Sunday liturgy mid-week in a small chapel so we could really control the shoot. When I brought this up in the meeting things got a little strange.
“I brought this up with the Archbishop and he gave permission to film what you need. He even offered to do a Sunday service during the week for us to film for you.”
“They don’t do that.” The Colleague exclaimed.
“I know they don’t usually do that, but the Archbishop suggested it might be the best way to filming everything” I responded.
“If the liturgy isn’t on a Sunday it’s not a Sunday Liturgy.” She insisted.
“I understand. But the Archbishop is willing to make an exception and do the same exact liturgy during the week.” I tried to explain.
“That’s something they don’t do.” She repeated. Things were heating up a little.
“I’m just telling you what the Archbishop of Aleppo has offered. That’s all.” I was really confused as to what was happening.
The Accountant stepped in. “What Jason is saying is that the Archbishop has given him permission to film anything we want.”
The Professor was silent through-out this whole exchange and seemed uncomfortable as well. “What my colleague is trying to say is that we want an authentic liturgy. Maybe something on a holiday. We want to see the people in the church participating.”
I fully understood where they were coming from but was trying to offer help. We continued the conversation and the meeting began to wind down.
“What was your undergrad work in?” The accountant asked. “Not that is matters, I’m just curious.”
“I didn’t go to school. I toured the world playing drums in punk bands and have now become a message therapist.”
“Great.” She replied. I believed her.
The meeting ended with an agreement that they would discuss what they wanted as a final product and I would submit a budget based on their wants. We shook hands and the meeting was adjourned.
The professor walked me out to the central campus . “95 percent of the work is developing the relationships to make these projects happen, and your relationship with the Archbishop is clearly strong enough to make this happen.” I felt reassured. I got in the car and headed back home.
Last week Yale excepted my budget proposal and now I am waiting to see the agreement. Once that’s signed it’s time to head back to Aleppo and start the recordings.

Monday, August 07, 2006

Let there be Rails!

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We have owned the house for a month and I've spent just about every free moment drilling, organizing, and being put on hold. We found out three weeks ago that it was mandatory to install handrails in DC if there were 5 or more steps. We technically have five but one is 2.5 inches, which, I think, brings the count to 4 1/2. Allstate doesn't agree. $600 dollars later we have handrails. We hired an Ethiopian guy named Tad and he and a partner did the entire job on our front steps.
Here is the proof.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Syria Photos

I have decided to put some photos from Syria up.

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I don't have the time to caption them. So if you want to know what they are, let me know.
Click Here to see Syria through my eyes

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Update w/ new photos

I have tried to post this thing 3 times and keep screwing it up!

I am sitting at home watching Saturday Night Live as Jenny sleeps. I haven't watched this show for a long time. It is really strange that Fred from Trenchmouth is on the show. I always feel a sense of pride when someone from the Indie scene "Makes It". Last Tuesday I went to see Nine Inch Nails and hang out with Aaron North, their NIN guitarist.

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I've know Aaron for several years now and he was actually considering joining Decahedron just before our demise I went back to their hotel after the show and hung out until 5 am. Click here to check out photos from the show

Jenny and I have started a new jobs working together at Klinger Advanced Aesthetics in Chevy Chase, Maryland. The facility is huge, just under 9000 sq/ft. That has kept me overwhelmed for just about 2 months now.

I finally started writing songs with my dream band. I'm calling it Zealot. The line up is: Mike Schliebaum (Darkest Hour) on guitar, Dimitri Minakakis (Dillinger Escape Plan) vocals, Nate Newton and Kurt Ballou (Converge) on Bass and Guitar. So far Mike and I have written one song that sounds like Entombed. It gets pretty heavy. It'll be good times.

The Syrian project is going really well. I have had meetings with Yale, the Bishops, and Professor Griffith from Catholic University. Everyone has been really helpful. Yale has requested a low budget video capturing the Eucharist from St. George's and St. Ephrem's. The final product will be used as a teaching tool and added to the Yale archives. I have submitted a budget and await a response. I hope to return to Syria in September. I have contacted the Syrian Embassy here in DC and trying to arrange a meeting with the Ambassador. I need his in setting up a meeting with President Assad. I would like to discuss his thoughts on housing one of Christianities oldest traditions in his country. I also would like to discuss his concepts on governing Muslims and Christians that seem to get along well. So all I can do now is wait.

I am finishing a 79 page photo book from the first trip to Aleppo. I made a short run of 3 books about 5 weeks ago, spending $288. I opened the package and found my captions were filled with several really stupid mistakes. Jenny's quote, "did you proof read this?" "I think so" "You misspelled your own name." There you go. I haven't had the will to finish since.

Jenny and I bought a house!
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We settle on July 6th, the day after my birthday. We have been trying to figure out how to celebrate our 30th so we bought a house! This is our new address is 3320 Mt. Pleasant St. NW, DC. This whole process has been insane. Everything has been insane.

I am finishing up my article for Massage & Bodywork magazine. Both articles that were run in Alternative Press got great response. I am tired and need to go to sleep. More to come.

Friday, March 17, 2006

HNIC

The archbishop of Aleppo is the un-official face of Christianity here in Syria. Since we are his guests, we have been able to parcipate in several national events. Yesterday we were introduced Price Michael of Greece. I think his sister is the King's wife. The archbishop had me discuss my project with him and he was very excited and demanded we stay in touch. I invited him to come to hear the choir last night and he brought his wife and a friend and we discussed several ideas and were shown several old manuscripts and the old chalice from Urfa.

Two days ago I was invited to participate in photo show with another photographer here in Aleppo when we return in June. I'll show 40 photos and he will show 40 photos. There is so much happening I am overwhelmed hourly.

The Archbishop had a meeting yesterday with the leader of the Syrian Jewish Community. I was introduced and was able to ask a hand full of questions. There are less than 50 Jews living in Syria these days. I asked about the rumor of Aleppo housing the world's oldest Synagogue. He said that was true and he offered to take us there. It hasn't been open for years and no one from the orthodox community has ever been inside. Several of us met up and did a small tour. It dates back 3000 years. I was able to take photos that Father Joseph will be using for a book he is soon to publish.

We have found hours of material that needs to be archived. We are meeting with the church's unofficial historian in 30 min. He has hours of recordings as well as an extensive library to sift through. I need to go prepare for the meeting. Party.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Who let the Sunni Out!!!! (no spell check or editing)

I am sitting in an internet cafe clean as a whistle. We just returned from the Hammam (turkish bath). I have spent $13 so far on this trip. The church has taken amazing care of us. We eat 3 meals a day at the Archdiocese. The food here is the best in the middle east. Everything is spiced perfectly. We are in lent so most of the Christians are fasting, which means no meat just vegetables. We haven't spent much time with the Archbishop, but spend a lot of time with the Deacons. Everyone has a great sense of humor. Marcell, one of the head deacon's, walks with slight arogence and comes across very serious. He's 25 but looks 37 and dosn't speak English. We found out the other day that he was the disiplainarian at the private school which seemed perfect for him. At dinner I said that Sara, the principal of the school he works for, told us that a boy was at school with out a shirt and Marcell got angry and kicked him out of the window. I said it with out a smile and Marcell got super pissed but all the other guys thought it was hilarious. So now everyone jokes about getting kicked out the window.

Today the archbishop had an interfaith dialog with a 3 Sunni Shieks, and one Sheite Shiek. We were invited to come film and take photos. It was an amazing site!

My computer broke so I haven't written anything on this trip. I have so much to write. I'll update again when I can.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Let's Do This!

SO..........

I update my flickr site with some photos from my trip to turkey four years ago. Click the link on the side bar to the check them out.

Hi

1. Jenny and I are driving a laser to Latrobe, PA tomorrow turning around and coming home. Thank you.
2. I quit my job at Natural Body Day Spa on Saturday and will start a new job at Klinger Advanced Aesthetics in April. (Details to
come)
3. I fly to Syria on Friday returning to DC on the 19th getting home @ 6 pm and leaving at 19 hours later for Mexico with Jenny
5. I come from Mexico and start the new job

See you in the PIT!!!!

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Flickr Updated

I have finaly updated my flickr page and added all the photos from Gigantour, a Darkest Hour Show, and Dillinger's last show on Miss Machine tour. Get into it!

Friday, February 24, 2006

Darkest Hour in B-More

I just got back from seeing Darkest Hour and Himsa at the Otto Bar up in Baltimore. The show was a good time and it was great seeing the crew. I took a handfull of photos that will go up in the next couple of days. In the meantime I added some more Megadeth photos to my Flickr page. Go to the link on the side bar and check out the set, Party soon!

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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Update

I just finished the piece for Alternative Press on stretching and it should be out in April. Syria has been postponed due to safety factors. Here is what the Archbishop of Aleppo wrote last week:

"Dear Jason,
Greetings and peace from Aleppo.
I was very glad to see you in the United States. Your project will be a remarkable one. We will all benefit from it.

Regarding your visit, I prefer that you postpone it for while because Europe is very much against what happened in Damascus last week concerning the caricatures. Negative decisions are expected to be taken against Syria. I am afraid though that you decide and come to Syrian, and then we may face some kind of problems. However, since you are an American citizen, we have to let the government know of your visit to Syria, at least this is what I know.
My advice to you is that you leave it for another time, which I do not know, when we can accommodate you in a much more better circumstances and regional situation.

While I look forward to hearing from you, please accept my blessing and beat regards, hoping that thing will turn into the good.
Mar Gregorios"

We'll see what happens next.

Trip to Miami

Jenny and I flew down to Miami this past weekend and had lunch with Elan Sassoon, Vidal's son.

My Wife and Elan Sassoon

On the way down we had a 2 hour delay and got to watch guys tear apart the wing right out our window.

US Airways wing issues

We stayed at the amazing Mayfair Hotel in Coconut Grove.

Our suite at the Mayfair

Porch at The Mayfair

Reading Area

The annual Coconut Grove Art Festival was happening all weekend and everyone came down to party.

My fellow Christians were out ruining the faith.

Spreading the love, 2006.

The Krishna's were out banging on drums having their own little parade

Who let the Krishna’s out?

And these guys thought they were in Germany

Shades Ahoy!

I met with Noel Paul Stookey of Peter, Paul, and Mary fame today to discuss the Syria project. Noel is teaching a class at Wesley Seminary @ American University here in DC. Our meeting was cut short and we decided to meet up again in near future. I am still working on my piece for Massage Therapy Magazine and working on an official website that encompasses everything I do. I have several shorts I want to write over the next couple of weeks. Good times.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

This is How I Party

Sometimes, you just have to Stage Dive!

Thursday, February 02, 2006

"I miss the parties!"

I owe my involvement with the Syrian Orthodox Church to Nextel’s bad cell phone coverage. I had just quit Decahedron and was toying around with the idea of using an orchestra of rock instruments to score music too deep-rooted Christian chant. One afternoon, an excited friend called my cell phone to talk about some chants he found on-line. Through garbled static I heard, “I found these old Syrian chants that could really be cool to score.” What he actually said was, “I found these old Serbian Chants…” The misunderstanding sparked the memory of William Dalrymple’s book From the Holy Mountain that I read several years prior. I vaguely remembered Dalrymple came across a monastery in Syria that chanted possibly the oldest form of Christian music. Intrigued, I searched online and couldn’t find anything about the monastery or chants and then scanned though From the Holy Mountain with equal amounts of luck. After several days of fruitless research, I decided to email Dalrymple directly in attempt to hear the chants or at least learn the monastery’s name. To my surprise, he responded four hours later. “Jason, the earliest chants can be found not in a monastery but in the church of the Urfalees in Aleppo: if you get a taxi driver to take you to the Syrian Quarter, the Hayy el-Surian, ask for St George’s Syrian Orthodox Church you will soon find it!” Dalrymple’s directions inspired a journey East into the lands of Christianity’s birth, offering an opportunity to experience the oldest musical link the world has to Jesus Christ.
The Syrian Orthodox Church is one of the oldest Christian institutions to read, write, and worship in Aramaic, the language spoken by Christ. They have several forms of liturgical worship; the oldest being the Edessian school which dates back to the hymns, homily, and poetry of St. Ephraem (303-373 CE) and the rhythms and melodies of the Gnostic Bardaisan (154 -222 CE) both whom lived in ancient Edessa, presently Urfa. The clergy of St. George’s Syrian Orthodox Church are the last people on earth to perform these ancient and largely unknown rituals.
According to my research the Ottomans killed an estimated 71 percent of southeastern Turkey’s Syrian Orthodox population during the Armenian massacres of World War I. Many survivors fled to India, Europe, and The United States but the Urfalees were deported to Aleppo, Syria.
I emailed my musical vision to SyrianOrthodoxChurch.org in the hopes of gaining permission to use their chants and discover a way to hear them. To validate my interests, I explained my first encounter with the Syrian Orthodox.
In 2002 I rented car and drove 3,000 miles along Turkey’s borders with Syria, Iraq, Iran, Armenia, and Georgia visiting every holy site along the way. I had read there were a handful of Orthodox monasteries in the in Turkish-Mesopotamian region of Tur Abdin where the monks spoke in Aramaic. Eager to hear the language of Jesus first hand, I got a map.
I was greeted at the gates of Mar Gabriel by a young guy who looked to be 16 or 17. I pulled out my Turkish phrase book and began stumbling through an introduction. The kid interrupted, “Do you speak English?”
“Yes. I’m from Washington DC. My name’s Jason.”
“I am Gabriel.”
“Did you name this place?”
He laughed. “No, it was built in 397 A.D. and named after Saint Gabriel. It is the oldest Syrian Orthodox Monastery. Please come in and take a tour with me.”
Amazed, I accepted the offer.
“How do you know English so well?” I asked.
“I attended school for a year in St. Louis.”
“Missouri? How did you end up there?”
“It was through an exchange program.”
“What do you miss most, not living in the US?” I asked.
His face lit up, “The parties!”
“What?” I was totally dumbfounded.
“Oh yeah! We used to dance and party all night!”
“You don’t party here with the monks? I thought Saturday night was Aramaic Karaoke? I know you guys argue over who gets to sing St. Paul’s parts!” We both laughed and continued walking.
“What’s your favorite type of music?” I probed.
“Rap!”
“Really? That’s crazy! Who’s your favorite artist?”
“DMX.”
“Gabriel, do you know how strange it is talking about DMX in a 1700-year-old Christian monastery that teaches the language of Christ?”
Gabriel laughed and we finished up the tour. On my way out, we ran into a man who invited me to stay and eat lunch. I accepted with a growling stomach.
Gabriel pulled me aside, “You’ll be eating with the deacons and the Archbishop.”
“What? Is it cool I’m wearing a band t-shirt?”
“It’s fine, come with me. I’ll take you to the dinning room.” We wound our way though several stone corridors into a humble dining room filled with 12 men, huddled around a long wood table, eating soup. All eyes were on me.
“Hey, I’m Jason.”
The men remained silent. One man picked up his bowl and left the room. Gabriel escorted me to the vacated wooden chair.
The Archbishop was presumably the stern looking man with a huge black beard cascading over solid black robes. “Welcome to our table.” He said with a deep voice.
“Thanks. It’s good to be here.” I chirped.
A couple of men introduced themselves in English and took the liberty of introducing the rest of the table. We talked for a while discussing my trip, the monastery’s history, and the role it plays in the modern Church. The Archbishop dismissed lunch with a prayer in Aramaic that sent shivers down my spine. We said our good-byes and I hit the road.
After reading my conceptual email, The Archbishop of the Eastern United States, Mor Cyril Aphrem Karim, responded himself two days later. “Thank you for your e-mail and your interest in the Syriac Christians. I will be happy to assist in any way I can. If you are planning to be in the New Jersey/New York area please let me know. I will be happy to meet with you and get to know more about what you have in mind.”
I called his office that day and discussed my concepts at length. He explained the Edessian School is only practiced at St. George’s Church in Aleppo and made of 700 sacred liturgical chants that are collectively called the Beth Gazo. I asked how I could hear them and he said chuckling, “go to Aleppo, there are no recordings.” They have been doing this for 1700 years and there are no recordings? He had a book that transcribed the entire Edessian Beth Gazo, and offered to mail it to me. “Unfortunately, the words are in Aramaic. Do you know someone that speaks the language?”
The only person I knew that spoke Aramaic was Christ.
He then asked, “Have you heard of The Hidden Pearl series?”
“No.”
“It is a book and video set that tells the story of the Aramaic language. It’s very nice. I will send you the Beth Gazo book and The Hidden Pearl for you to enjoy.”
I said, “Thank you so much” but thought, “Holy Crap, this is insane!”
“I will give you now to my assistant so we can schedule a meeting.”
Mor Karim seemed to be a generous, jolly man, who laughed often and truly enjoyed people.
The night before the meeting I felt like a teenager trying to find a suit for Homecoming. On a good day I have no fashion sense, on the eve of the biggest meeting of my life, I was hopeless. I went through four shirts, five ties, and three pairs of pants and still couldn’t decide what to wear.
“I think the suit’s too formal. It’s just your first meeting.” Jenny, my fashion conscious fiancé, advised.
“I’m meeting with the Archbishop of the Syrian Orthodox Church. I think that’s pretty formal!” I snapped. I drove North with out a tie in dark green pants and a black dress shirt.
Jenny and I slammed the car doors and walked towards the office of St. Mark’s Syrian Orthodox Church, a converted Presbyterian church located in a suburban neighborhood of Teaneck, New Jersey. We were half way up the sidewalk when Archbishop Mor Cyril Aphrem Karim swung the door opened and called, “Jason! Welcome!” We were already old friends. He ushered us into a formal sitting room, which had two or three-dozen dark-wood chairs arching off the sides of the Archbishop’s throne. The chairs were covered in fine red linen but the Archbishop’s throne was covered in lavish red velvet. A large red liturgy book, embossed with gold a cross on the cover, rested on the Archbishop’s velvet seat. Small traditional Syrian tables to rest coffee or tea were placed every couple of chairs. We were offered a seat and Mor Karim brought in fresh coffee. I normally don’t drink coffee but took a cup to be hospitable, Jenny passed. After setting down the coffee tray he took a seat next to his throne. He wore black pants and a red shirt with a priest collar, and no head covering. To my surprise, he was very informal; we were just hanging out having a conversation. As he sat down, I crossed my legs and realized I was wearing ankle socks. I immediately planted both legs on the ground and pulled the legs of my pants down as far as possible.
We discussed family, upbringing, and my impending wedding. We chatted for ten-fifteen minutes and, in an attempt to transition from small talk to business, I nervously handed him my proposal and portfolio. “These are the ideas I have been working on the past couple of weeks. Let me know what you think.”
I sat in silent anxiety staring at him as he slowly reviewed the proposal. The first question he raised was concerning our idea to archive the final recordings on reel-to-reel tape. I explained the advantages of using analog storage over digital media for archival purposes, which seemed satisfactory and he continued reading. He made comments to himself and turned to me when was finished reading.
Stroking his beard, “I think all four points you have are good. How much do you think this will cost?”
Underestimating the progress of the meeting I wasn’t prepared to talk numbers. I had nothing to go on except some half-remembered Orbitz tickets. I had no idea what to say; I tried to buy myself some time by talking. “Well, there are obviously four separate parts to this project and I don’t think that it would be fair for the Church to fund parts of the proposal that don’t directly relate to the recording of the Beth Gazo…”
“How much do you think? I can contact Father Tarzi on the west coast to help raise funds.” The Archbishop gently persisted.
“I’m not sure. I need some time to figure costs.” I replied.
“Roughly.”
“I guess with airfare and living expenses for the month… somewhere between five to seven thousand?” I said meekly. In actuality, I should have said somewhere between 30 and 35 thousand.
Mor Karim looked at the proposal and said, “Oh, I can do that myself. This is not a problem.”
“Remember, I need to talk with Josh about costs and things.” I reiterated.
“Sure.” He said
Well, I undersold the project wearing ankle socks.
His cell phone rang. He took the call and began speaking in heavy Arabic. I sat, ankles exposed, hoping I didn’t sabotage the project. The phone-call lasted a few minutes allowing my doubts to fester. His cell phone interrupted our meeting several times because his secretary wasn’t around to field calls.
“I will call Father Tarzi and His Holiness in Damascus later today to tell them of your ideas. I think this is a great project and is important to our people. You will have full cooperation in Aleppo. The Archbishop there knows the local governments so there will be no problems if you need a cover.”
Smiling but terrified, I asked “A cover?” Jenny didn’t like the sound of it either. She grabbed my arm and listened intently.
“There should be no problems. He will arrange the people for you and they should have a place for you to stay.”
I hid my excitement as he delivered the good news. I was going to Syria.
We moved into his office to check out the St. George’s website which was in Arabic so I couldn’t read a thing. We tried to listen to some Urfalee mp3’s, that were not in the Edessian School, but they were bad recordings and were hard to understand.
The phone rang again. “You will have to excuse me. I am very sorry.” After he got off the phone we walked over to the church’s nave, which retained the look and feel of the Presbyterian church with oak pews, white walls, and blood red carpet. A white lectern laced with gold stood at the forefront of a beautiful sanctuary tiled in marble. In the center of the Sanctuary hung a large white veil, displaying a risen Jesus, hiding a gold domed structure.
I asked,” What’s behind the curtain?”
Mor Karim replied, “Behind the veil is The Holy of Holies or Tabernacle.” I didn’t know Christian Churches had Tabernacles. In the Old Testament, the Tabernacle housed the Ark of the Covenant and was believed to be the throne of God himself. It was kept dark and could be entered once a year by a priest.
“Would you like to see it?” He asked.
“I would be honored.”
The Archbishop opened the veil and invited me up to view the Tabernacle. I removed my shoes and with the utmost reverence approached the Holy of Holies. Under the golden dome resided a communion chalice, a bible, a cross, candles, and flowers, all symbols of God’s new covenant with man. The symbolism was so overwhelming I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and prayed.
I was taken back by Mor Karim’s display of faith. Here I was, a virtual stranger, all he knew of me came from an email and maybe 40 minutes of conversation; yet he offered money, protection, and access to the most sacred aspects of his Church. We were two very different individuals coming from very different places; He was an Orthodox Archbishop, spiritually in charge of half the United States and I was a rock-n-roll massage therapist struggling with wedding responsibilities. I found beauty and reassurance in the commonality of our faiths in God and our willingness to follow the path which faith takes us.
It was 1:30 and our meeting had lasted two-and-a-half hours. Subsisting on a Luna bar and a hand full of pistachios, Jenny and I were fading fast. We walked back to Mor Karim’s office, took a couple of portraits, and said our good byes. Mor Karim suggested the vegetarian restaurant around the corner for lunch. Regrettably he had to stay behind and take care of business matters before leaving town the following day. I walked down the church steps spiritually enlightened, astonished, and amazed that I was going to Syria.

I've been busy

I've gotten out the habit of writng with everything that's been happening. This sums up what's been going down.

1. I'm married. Jenny and I have been enjoying a wonderful married life. She is on the med-school waitlist for GW, so we are waiting to see what happens.

2. I have to get my Visa and it's looking like I’m going to Syria at the end of the month. I've teamed with David Holloway and applied for a grant from Duke University to try and raise funds for the project. http://cds.aas.duke.edu/l-t/index.html. I won't know if we get the Grant until the summer

3. I have a second feature in Alternative Press for the May issue. I will have 1/2 to a full page discussing how to treat and prevent "Metal Neck" from a massage therapist point of view. I plan on having a photo shoot w/ Ben Weinman from Dillinger Escape Plan doing the stretches.

4. Jenny and I are headed to Playa del Carmen, Mexico for Honeymoon #2 at the end of March. Jenny plans on laying on the beach and I plan on do some serious scuba diving.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Honeymoon Pictures

I just posted a handful of photos on my flickr page. Click the link in the side bar to check them out. More to follow.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

We could disapear...

I just got home from my first night back to work after the wedding. On the way to work I decided to listen the Frodus Weapons record. Listening to that record brings up such strong emotions. It pisses me off that we never got to play most of those songs live. That was the hardest I’ve worked on a record. After work the first song that came on was 6/99. For the past 6 years that song has been synonymous with Alanna’s death. I even have the chorus tattooed around my arm in Aramaic as a memorial. It has always been a song reminding me of how rough times used to be and how horrible that year was but tonight I heard something new. For the first time I heard the positive side to the song.

“We could disappear in echoes. We could disappear in the lives of those we love. I thought hope was lost. I tried not to look back. Haunted by darkened thoughts. The void drew me closer. Until we are brought back. By the lives of those we love. Hope was lost. I closed my eyes.”

Now that I am married I have a whole new life to look forward to. I have spent several years trying not wallow in the hell I went through. It took God sending Jenny to pull me into the present balancing me. I wasn’t able to look to or plan for the future for years. That’s all changed. I’ve changed, and I have my wife and God to thank.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

First day of the rest of my life

So much has happened since my last post I don’t even know where to begin. My articles in Alternative Press and Chord are out so go pick up copies and support the troops!! I now have a wife and we are celebrating our marriage in Costa Rica on Sunday. We fly into the capital, San Hose, and promptly get in a rental car so I can drive us 3 hours north to the town of La Fortuna where we have a deluxe suit w/ hot tub on the porch as well a basalt garden shower. We’ll be there for 2.5 days/ 3 nights. We plan on completely abusing the hot springs! Then we drive back down to San Jose and take a Cessna about an hour south to the Osa Peninsula. We will be picked up and taken an hour through the rainforest to the coast where we will be staying in our own deluxe bungalow overlooking the pacific all while eating 3 multi corse gourmet meals a day. I need this!

On October 16th I did my massive photo shoot for the Wizards Dance Team. The shoot went well and it took me several weeks to process and tone 62 files. Four days after the shoot, the Vice President of the Wizards had a problem with the contract that I had negotiated w/ the team. After about a week of intense negotiation we settled and things are almost closed.

Last week we got a call from our good friend Alison, who lives upstairs, looking for the building manager’s number because, “I think my neighbor’s place is on fire.”
“Call 911!” I suggested.
“Can I get the number anyway?”
“I’ll be up in a second!”
I grabbed our fire extinguisher and ran up to find the fourth floor covered in grey smoke. One guy, who was eating ribs, went to try and find keys to the place and I tried to break down the door with the fire extinguisher. I rammed the door several times with no luck. A board member finally showed up with a key I got the door unlocked and went into the smoked filled apartment with a hand towel wrapped around my nose and mouth. The people looked to be having some sort of dinner party. There were four wine glasses waiting on a small table with several breath mints pilled in the middle. On the stove was a yellow pot burning and smoldering. I wet a sponge, grabbed the handle, and put the pot in the sink under running water. Smoke and steam filled the room and I left coughing. Jenny and Alison were waiting concerned in the stairwell. Jenny looked scared beyond belief. Since things seemed to be under control, we walked back down to our place and I washed most of the smoke off and suffered a slight headache for the evening. Good times. A day in the life….

Monday, October 10, 2005

Just Print Please

This weekend has been intense. It started with my friend Bill’s bachelor parties on Friday and Saturday nights. Friday we just went out to eat and saw Flight Plan. I had to work on Sat. so I missed October Fest and the gun range with the guys. I met up with them at the DC United Game then we headed up into my hood for some food and drink. I woke up at 5:45 am on Sunday to fly to Tampa. A good friend’s mom was killed in a car accident and I went to the funeral. It was good to hang out with the Tampa crew. I woke up this morning at 4:40 am and flew back home. I slept on the floor of Jenny’s parents house and woke up around 11:45. We then wrapped wedding favors and I came home and went to the opening of new restaurant Zengo, for DC Style. The night started with some Dragon Dancing. I took a photo of three guys with the dragon. Since the drums were directly behind us I had each person write their name out. When I got to the tallest gentleman he began to write in cursive.
“No sir, I don’t need cursive. Just print.” He stopped half way into his signature and printed Placido Domingo. I felt pretty lame.
I took portraits for about an hour and then came home to Jenny cleaning the bathrooms. We got in bed about 20 min ago and she started complaining of having a cloudy head ,feeling natious, stomach hurt, and sweating,.
“I don’t think I had proper ventilation from the chemicals.”
“What did you use.”
“I used ammonia in the toilet and bleach on the outside of the toilet.”
“You mixed them?”
“I feel bad.”
I called poison control and Jenny has slight ammonia/ bleach poisoning. She was in the shower for ten minutes rinsing off. I just made her drink 8 oz of rice milk against her will. I have the rest of my life to look forward to things like this. Good times.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Lights on For Safety

So I get up this morning at 8 to work out with my trainer. I walk to my car and see my right tail light's on (the left doesn’t work.) I ran over to discover that I left my lights on all night. Actually, they had been on since 3pm yesterday. I do this often. I drive with my lights on no matter what time of day. Since I drive on the intense side of the spectrum I figure it’s safer. I’m now sitting in the livingroom in my workout clothes waiting for my trainer to come over and jump the little red truck that could.

On a different note…The A.P. and Chord articles are finished and I’m now working on a feature for Massage and Bodywork, one of the nations largest massage magazines. I called the executive editor last Thursday and she loved my idea. It’s about the massage therapist side of DEP tour. I have my first photo assignment for DC Style on Saturday and shoot the Wizards dancers on Oct 16th. Keepin it real!

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Schlie's Wedding

I just got off the phone w/ Mrs. Alindogan. The family got our wedding invitation and they are really happy that I found Jenny and moving on. Understandably, she thinks the actual ceremony might be to emotional so she’s not sure if they’ll come to the ceremony but will come to the reception. I know I’ll be rough on me. She told me Mr. Alindogan cried when he read the invite. Once I heard that, the tears came and I haven’t stopped crying.

Last night was Mike Schliebaum’s wedding. It was the first time most of the old crew was together in years. The last time everyone was actually together was for Alanna’s funeral. At the wedding, I sat with Frodus and their ladies plus Ken Hirsch, Vanessa, Phyte, and Francoise. It was really good sitting with Shelby and Nate, even though they were on the other side of the table. Things between us aren’t 100% back but we’re getting there. Phyte and I had a dance off and we both torn our pants on the floor. The night ended with Elton John’s Tiny Dancer. Everyone one was dancing and hugging. I held Jenny close with Ken Hirsch on my right and Brian McTernan on my left while trying to hold back the tears. We’re not 23 and most of us don’t tour anymore. Everyone is settling down. Last night I learned that no distance, time, or tragedy can take away what our crew’s got.

My life has changed dramatically since Alanna has died. Now, almost 6 years later, I’m actually getting married. The love I have for Jenny is as deep as it gets. Greif runs deep and it’s really rough having to wade through your past just to be in the present.

Monday, September 19, 2005

Update

When I'm not massaging I have been typing away for a couple of articles. One is a 5 page spread for Alternative Press, most likely for the Nov issue. The second is a small piece for Chord magazine. Both are about the Dillinger tour. I will be working on a third in the next couple of days. I got my first photo assignment from DC Style magazine. I will be shooting "The 25th Anniversary with National Dinner Honoring Julian Bond and Cyndi Lauper." I am still figuring out a photo shoot for the Washington Wizards Dance Team. I spoke to the Arch Bishop a couple of weeks ago and he said the project is a go. He spoke to the Patriarch in Syria who has approved us for three weeks in the spring. I am in the process of putting together a budget proposal and plan to have a second meeting in the near future. On top of all this I get married in 5 weeks! Jenny and I just got our wedding bands today. We are going to Costa Rica for our honeymoon. I'll write full details later. I rode my bike 28 miles today and need to sleep now.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Finding Forrester

I’m home from tour and go back work today. It feels really good to be home. I'm working on a multi-page tour diary for Alternative Press that's due next week so I might need to pull back from the blog for a bit. On top of wedding planning, writing, and massage, I go back to organizing and researching the Syria project, working on a photo shoot for the Wizards Dance Team, and trying to run and work out daily. I will be writing the adventures of Gigantour over the next couple of weeks then I think I'll write of my Peru adventure last year. In the words of Sean Connery, “You’re the man now, dog!”

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Jones Beach

Jones Beach Long Island now holds the all time low attendance record for Dillinger on this tour. There was under 150 people in an amphitheater that held 14,000.

james-empty-LI

To top this wonderful experience, the local crew were horrible to work with. Everyone had an attitude accompanied by a bad pair of shades. The photo “coordinator” was the worst. She came up yelling at me just after I had finished helping Chris set up the drums. I was standing on the side of the stage with my camera slung over my back.
“You don’t have permission to be on stage!”
“What are you talking about?”
“You can’t be onstage!”
“I’m with the band playing.”
“Get off stage!”
“What’s your problem? Why are you freaking out? I’m on this whole tour!”
“What’s your name!!!”
“Jason Hamacher. Let me know if that works for you!”
“You can’t be on stage with out a pass!”
“Thank you!”
I turned my back on her laughing, as she stormed off into a sea of deserted bleachers.

Panama-Sean
(this isn't the coordinator but Panama Jack's cousin, Panama Sean)

The handful of people that came up front were totally into the show.

Greg-w-2-fans-LI

Greg-Clouds-LI

Greg-Empty-LI

After the third song the other photographers were forced to leave the front and there were only four people left. It was a lonely day, but the energy was really intense. Greg and Ben were all over the place.

Greg-Cymbal-Speaker

Ben-Just-Do-It

After the second song Greg launched the mic stand over the crowd and into the water below. Mid set he picked up the light box and threw it into the audience. It landed next to a father and son who got up and left immediately. Ben brought out the raw by accidentally nailing Greg full on in the nuts!

Kick-in-the-balls

Greg fell face down for a second or two then got up and hit Ben with the mic really hard. I looked like they were going to all out brawl. It was definitely weird.

Greg ended the set by running and jumping ten feet over the barriers into the bay swimming out of sight. It was amazing.

Greg getting out of the bay

Greg-H2o

No one could believe what had happened and it was the talk of the tour for hours. The state water police were looking for him for a while since the bay was a state park. Awesome.

Monday, August 22, 2005

Typing glitches

I haven't had net access for over a week. Something goes wrong with my quotation marks and apostrophes when I import a story from word. If you come across mistakes bear with them and email them to me. Thanks.

I didn't order floss with my lobster!

The Great Chaffy once described Maine as, "so famous for its light that photographers and artists come from all over the world to capture it. The light is ever changing, sometimes with subtlety, sometimes with drama, and our house is so positioned with its east/west orientation looking east over the water that we have a ringside seat for this daily drama. Chaffy hit the nail on the head. Yesterday was our third day off and we spent most of the day driving from Pittsburg to Portland, Maine. Mike and I had looked online for a seafood restaurant and came across Cap'n Newick's. Lobster Ahoy!!

Newick's

It was two miles from where we parked the bus and Chris, Mike and I cheerfully walked twenty minutes day dreaming of what the Cap'n had in store for us.

On-the-way-to-Newick's

I started with Newick'’s Famous Chowder followed by some serious Lobster Newburg, chunked lobster meat in a sweet cream sauce over philo dough. Everything was amazing until I pulled a 7 inch hair out of my bowl.

Newick's-Hair

I showed our waitress and she was really embarrassed and had a second plate made which was more amazing than the first. Dessert was fresh Maine blueberry cobbler. Yes!!!!! My whole meal cost $10.86. I welcome hair.

After dinner we moved the bus to a mall parking lot and Ben, Paolo, and myself ended up going to the movies. I talked the manager into letting us see Four Brothers w/ Mark Walberg for six bucks. After the movie we got invited to stay and screen 40 Year Old Virgin and Valint. While the previews were showing some girls began throwing “bomb bags” around the theater. They were small foil bags filled with some non toxic chemical that explodes after squeezing. The employees were yelling and insulting each other. It was total chaos. Ben put it best, “I would normally say something to the guy yelling but it'’s the manager.” Newick's and a triple feature, all for under 20 bucks. Now that'’s a straight-edge party!

We'’ve had massive drives on this tour. The first was from Tampa to Detroit. Midway, we parked at a Super Wal-Mart outside of Nashville for the night. Warren'’s friend George picked us up after a gourmet dinner at subway and took us to his place. We sat around for a hour or so wondering what the heck we were going to do. Then George asked "“Do you guys want to go to a party?"
"“What kind of party?"”
"“Like a college party. School starts next week so some people are getting together tonight."
"Dude!!! I'’ve got my camera! Let's do this!"

Fifteen minutes later we were surrounded by guys in pastel polokhakitucked tightly into kaki shorts topped off with severely creased baseball caps. There were way more dudes than girls. There was a five or six to one ratio happening. Sausage fest 2005!

jason-frat-party

Mike-and-the-ladies

The Grateful Dead provided a lack luster soundtrack to a low energy game of beer pong.

Beer Pong

We mingled around for a while but there wasn'’t much going on at first. I sat and marveled at the abundence of pastel, stripes, and mandels. I was super bored so it was time to take this party up a notch. I began to get a little rowdy. It was some guys 21st birthday, so to celebrate he decided to take a couple of keg stands. Being that I have never drank I have never actually witnessed a keg stand, this was absolutely hilarious! People were holding him up cheering. I got really close to the tap and began screaming at him. It was on!

Keg-Stand

Guys were wearing two types of shirts. Either a polo three button or full frontal button up. The guys that chose full frontal were, for the most part, rolling, two buttons deep. Unacceptable. This was a party! I began demanding that everyone roll at least 4 deep.

Jason-Frat-party-2

If they didn'’t want to, I opened their shirt for them. One kid didn'’t want to roll deep at all so I made him trade shirts with me for the night.

There was nothing out for me to drink so I checked the fridge hoping for a ginger ale but only found Coke. I also found a stick of butter that needed to be eaten by a drunk frat guy. We emerged from the kitchen yelling, "“Stick of butter for ten bucks! Who wants ten bucks to eat this stick of butter? Get into it! Get some of this!"” No one was going for it so I upped it to $13. The extra three dollars was the deal breaker for Daniel. He walked up, unwrapped, and bit in.

Daniel first try
(the guy in the back is wearing my blue shirt)

Immediately dry heaving, Daniel put down the butter and shamefully stepped back into the shadows. Will stepped up to finish what Daniel started. The first bite was confident and triumphant.

Will-in-the-Butter

Everyone was cheering and yelling. The second bite was followed by a heave so he chased it with beer.

Will-the-Damaja

Will-vomit-face

Will-with-Beer

Keep in mind it was only 9:30. Will was starting his night out right! Bite three looked like he wasn’t going to make it so I upped the stakes by offering another $10 if he puked on someone. Each bite went down slow with a chaser of warm beer. By 9:40 Will had taken down seven tablespoons of butter and a full red cup of beer. He earned twenty three dollars even though he didn't puke on someone.

Wills-Earnings

We hung out for a little while longer and then went back to the bus. Party’s over.

The next day was the DTE Energy Amphitheater in Detroit. When Dillinger first began playing the only sound between songs was the war cry of a lone metal head standing in the seats holding a guitar shaped carafe of beer thrashing as hard as humanly possible.

Headbang-Detroit

Greg called him out and dedicated a song to him which made the dude’s year. I ran into the audience to take photos of the dude and decided to bring him and his friend up front.

Get-some-of-this!

They freaked out and began to head bang even harder once they got some front row action. There crowd was way into the show but unfortunately most of the Dillinger fans were way in the back with lawn seats. Even though they were at least 50 yards from the stage, they were singing and moshing on the sidewalk! Greg gave them a shout out so I ran up to the back and pulled the sidewalk pit down to the front. The seven guys I grabbed turned into 150 guys rushing the barrier.

Detroit-show

It was amazing! Everyone was singing along and freaking out! It felt like a Middlesex hardcore show.

Greg-Audience-Detroit

Mike Portnoy from Dream Theater was watching on the side of the stage super stoked. We exchanged glances so I walked over.
"I hope I don'’t get in trouble for playing Pied Piper."
"I'’ll make sure you don't get in trouble, man. That was awesome!"
After the set everyone went back to their respected seats and I never heard a thing from management. Good times.
More to come....

Monday, August 15, 2005

See you at Sbarro!

I 'm partying at an Apple Store in Columbus, Ohio on our day off. I woke up a little before 2pm and have spent all day at the mall. Seriously. Touring in a bus limits you to large parking lots and is ideal for supreme boredom. At least the bus doesn't reek of urine anymore. Tonight we are going to see a double feature, Wedding Crashers then Bateman Begins. Highlights!

I found out Russ, the singer for Symphony X, worked as a Medieval Times corporate sword and jousting trainer for 15 years! He's agreed to tear my shirt off and throw me onto the stage while Dillinger is thrashing! I can't wait.

I have a ton to write which I'll be working on over the next couple of days. Topics and photos include a frat party in Nashville, playing an old Nazi Hall, a haunted pool, Jeffrey Dahmer, and the never ending search for wireless signal. Time to go check out the food court.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Glamour

The scent of Urine has begun to infiltrate every inch of the bus. All the glamour and attraction of rock has been lost in the gagging and coughing while trying to sleep. It’s been rough the past couple of days. We’ve had all sorts of bus trouble. First the AC wasn’t working well and Paul, our high-pitched Irish tour manager, has dedicated his life to uphold the international standards of cold air. Paul was talking with Dave, the bus driver, about the failing AC when my favorite quote of tour was said. Dave had his hand over the AC register defending his bus, “you can feel the cold air being blown out here. It’s pretty cold.” Paul’s response, “But it’s not crisp! I want cold CRISP air. You know what I mean? I really like the air to be crisp.” I thought he was kidding. “What do you guys think? You know what I mean? Do you think the air is crisp?” None of us knew what he was talking about and it was awesome.

We woke up in West Palm w/ two blown trailer tires and a cracked trailer chassis.

Trailer Crack

The trailer had several stress fractures and was completely halved behind the wheel well. Had we driven much further the trailer would have completely torn apart. Fortunately, our bus company is based in South Florida and they called a mobile welder to come out and fix the problem.

Welder

He rolled up in an white truck with a huge welding motor in the back and got straight down to business.

Welder working

He was under the trailer for most of the day and had it fixed by load out.

Our bus driver takes forever. It’s not a matter of driving slow or fast or getting lost. It just takes forever. No one knows why or how but we just roll real slow.

More to come....

Monday, August 08, 2005

“You were Atlanta! We were Megadeth! See you guys next time!”

I am in a South Florida amphitheater sitting in a trailer watching Zoolander and listening to the tour manager from Fear factory tell us that ”there’s 80/20 ratio of girls to guys at Deftones shows.” Apparently, one tech from the Fear Factory crew “works for the Deftones and gets so much p*&%y Bro, it’s awesome!” I am definitely in a world of discomfort and it’s only day three.

The first night was held in Gwinnett arena which holds 10,000-12,000 humans.

Gwinette Arena Entrance

Nowhere close to a third of those people decided to come so the stage was pushed as close to the entrance to as possible. Every band had claimed their own plot of concrete to assemble the drum sets. Everyone was setting up their drums on huge rolling risers covered in grey carpet. I asked where to get to find a riser and was told the band should've brought their own. Awesome. It takes Dream Theater’s drumtech at least an hour and a half to set up their 36 piece drum monster. It’s 2005. Something’s wrong.

Lighting

Front of House

Drum set up

Ben Setting Up

Chris Getting It Started

Mike, James, Warren


Dillinger was herded into the right corner of the stage. Within the first thirty seconds Greg smashed a mic stand over the monitors and Ben was knocking over the cabinets. The crowd wasn’t ready for Dillinger. A couple of dudes stood in the front cheering as the rest stared in terrified chaos. Crew and techs began to spread the word and then before we knew it stage left was loaded with onlookers. “We’re really excited you guys are on the tour! You bring new life into this thing.”

Greg Between Stands

Greg

Liam the Star

James Ahoy

Keepin It Real

Thrash Attack

Greg & Ben Spazz Out

Since we’re all in our late 20’s most crew here treat us like were new to touring. The stage manager hates us. Having Greg and Ben thrash and throw monitors, cabinets, and stands doesn’t make them happy. Today, Benoit mouthed off a little to the stage manager and there was a scare that we were going to get thrown off the tour.

I caught a little of Life of Agony and Fear Factory. Life of Agony were pretty weak, mediocre, bar rock with a lot of prancing. Not down. Fear Factory was super heavy and sounded like a machine. I listened to half a Dream Theater song and left out of principle. To much to soon. Then it was time.

Megedeth Bass Drum

Megadeth Road Case

I have to admit I was never a huge Megadeth fan. I don’t know many songs outside of the Rust in Peace record, but when the lights dimmed and the intro came on I was stoked. By this point the seats were filled and people were ready to party.

Metalhead

The band strolled on stage and the crowd roared. They started with a song I didn’t know. They played a lot of songs I didn’t know but they did play Hangar 18, Peace Sells, and Holy War which was good enough for me. They had full on pyro and everything. All the fire couldn’t cover the lack of energy that was happening on stage. There was almost no head banging!! They seemed really out of it. They sounded pretty good, but I wanted way more. I walked all over the arena waiting for the hits. After tan encore of Holy War, sparks showered the stage and the band held hands and took a bow.

Megadeth Full Frontal

Megadeth w/ Mic Stand

Mustain

Megadeth Bass Player

Hanger 18

Megadeth Guitarist

Mustaine Solo

Megadeth Fire

“You were Atlanta! We were Megadeth! See you guys next time!”

Friday, August 05, 2005

It's on!!

The Bus

I am in the bowls of the Gwinnett Arena picking up a wireless signal from Dream Theater’s broadcasting station. I was supposed to be picked up in an IKEA parking lot at 10pm Wednesday night. 12 hours later I was picked up in the parking lot of my dad’s old church. I stepped on board drained and exhausted. Four hours later was out first stop in Spotsylvania, VA. I ate lunch at Panera with Paul, tour manager, and Paolo, merch dude.

Panera Lunch

The other guys went to Super Wal-Mart for food. They loaded up on groceries and kept them in the bus’ fridge.

Tool box in Wal Mart Parking lot

I thought the whole Wal-Mart thing was lame until I was sitting on the bus starving several hours later with out anything to eat.

The next stop was at a Flying J somewhere in North Carolina. The characters always come out at the truck stops.

Art Royal  The Shoe Shine Man

Flying-j-Sleeves-2

Flying-j-extreme-hunter

We met a guy named Bill Thornton that looked ZZTop’s mad scientist uncle. Bill lives in Southern Cali and travels around the country lecturing on how to sue the government.

Bill Thornton

Bill James Paolo

I didn’t get a chance to hear his whole deal because Robert Minter was talking to Warren, guitar tech, about his famous blues father, Louisiana Red. Robert wanted to show us his dad’s guitar and get a photo.

Robert and Warren

Warren and I followed Robert to his rig to see this guitar.

Robert Minter

Robert Minter

Robert with Guitar

We hung out for a while then retreated back to the bus.

Top o' the Laim

We ended up eating dinner at TGI Fridays at 10:30 pm. I got to use my social mastery and convinced the waiter to hook us up with free salads. It’s the little things that really make a tour.

The rest of the band flew down today just in time for load in. We are way out of our league. All the other bands brought their own drum risers. Not carpets but risers! The drummer for Fear Factory calls himself the Mexicacutioner. Get into that!! Dream Theater’s drum set is 36 pieces. The tech wants me to do a photo shoot of the assembly. This is insane!

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Still Waiting

It's 9:11 am I i'm still at home. This tour is going to be insane!!!!!

Sitting in the Waiting Room

I was supposed to meet Dillinger in an Ikea parking lot off route 1 in College Park, Maryland at 10pm. I never left the house because 10pm turned into 12am which turned into 4am and is now “6 am.” It’s 2:46 and I am beyond tired. The tour bus broke down on the way out of Jersey which caused the delay. It’s nice to know that vehicle breakdowns happen across the board and not just to Shelby and I. Tour is on!

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

On the Road Again..

It’s official! I get on the Dillinger Escape Plan tour bus as Ben's massage therapist tomorrow night. I'll be gone for a month cruising around the eastern US and Canada with an all leather interior and private LCD viewing screen in my bunk! I will have email access almost every day, so get in touch if needs be. I will have my camera with me so I’ll be posting stories and photos of the metal. See you in the PIT!!!

08/05/05 // Duluth, GA
The Arena at Gwinnet Center

08/06/05 // Orlando, Fl
Hard Rock LIve

08/07/05 // West Palm Beach, Fl
Sound Advice Amph.

08/08/05 // Tamp, Fl
St. Pete Times Forum

08/10/05 // Clarkston, MI
DTE Energy Music Theatre

08/11/05 // Ft. Wayne, IN
Memorial Coliseum

08/12/05 // Tinley Park, IL
Tweeter Center

08/13/05 // Milwaukee, WI
The Rave Ballroom

08/14/05 // Cleveland, OH
Tower City Amphitheater

08/17/05 // Pittsburg, PA
Chevrolet Amphitheatre at Station

08/19/05 // Portland, ME
Cumberland Co. Civic Center

08/20/05 // Manchester, NH
Verizon Wireless Arena

08/21/05 // Wantagh, NY
Tommy Hilfiger at Jones Beach

08/23/05 // Wantagh, NY
Tommy Hilfiger at Jones Beach

08/24/05 // Holmdel, NJ
PNC Bank Arts Center

08/26/05 // Boston, MA
Bank of America Pavilion

08/27/05 // Ready, PA
Sovereign Center

08/28/05 // Atlantic City, NJ
House of Blues

08/30/05 // Darien Center, NY
Darien Lake Performing Arts Center

08/31/05 // Huntington, WV
Big Sandy Superstore Arena

09/02/05 // Montreal, Que
Bell Centre

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

The Proposal

“A cortege of elderly priests conducted the service, accompanied by a string of echoing laments of almost unearthly beauty, sinuous alleluias which floated with the gentle indecision of falling feathers down arpeggios of dying cadences before losing themselves in a soft black hole of basso profundo.” Excerpt about the Urfalees of Aleppo, Syria from William Dalrymple’s book, “From The Holy Mountain.”

The lands and buildings of the Christian faith – some of the very foundational elements of Christianity – seem distant, almost mythical, here in the United States. Growing up the son of a Southern Baptist minister, I did not necessarily feel the supreme reverence experienced by followers of other Christian traditions. My search for the roots of Christianity combined with my passion for music, history, and travel has taken me all over the world. In 2001, I had the great opportunity to play three concerts in Israel. Entering the Holy Sepulcher and attending an Easter sunrise service at the Garden Tomb changed my life. In 2002, music brought me back to Europe. Having three weeks between tours, I decided to travel to Turkey’s Eastern Anatolia. Alone, I flew into Diyarbakir, rented a car, and drove 3000 miles over seven days visiting every holy site possible. It was on the plains of Mesopotamia where I discovered the Syrian Orthodox Church. At the time I did not know Aramaic was still spoken, let alone used for liturgy, and the history that abounds within the Church amazed me. It is my intention to share with the public the sense of holiness, reverence, and history that the Syrian Orthodox Church offers. I propose to do this by traveling to Aleppo, Syria, during spring 2006 to photograph, research, and record the culture of the Urfalees of St. George's Syrian Orthodox Church.

I first learned of the Urfalees by reading William Dalrymple’s book, From the Holy Mountain. I have corresponded with Dalrymple directly and he claims that "the earliest [Christian] chants can be found not in a monastery but in the church of the Urfalees in Aleppo: if you get a taxi driver to take you to the Syrian Quarter, the Hayy el-Surian, and ask there for the Church of St George, you will soon find it.” The Urfalees are a small sect of the Syrian Orthodox Church that were exiled from Urfa, Turkey in 1924 under the rule of Ataturk who was concerned with “Urfa’s ethnic purity.” The Urfalees settled in Aleppo, Syria and are the only people who have kept the original Edessian School of Aramaic liturgy in practice. The Edessian School is the original liturgy that all Syriac liturgies have evolved from dating back to the hymns, homily, and poetry of St. Ephraem (303-373 CE). St. Ephraem’s most prolific writings were aimed against heresies of the times, specifically the teachings of the Gnostic Bardaisan (154 -222 CE) who is generally credited with the origins of Syriac poetry.

I have spoken with Father Joseph Tarzi, world expert on the Edessian School, and he has confirmed there are no quality performance recordings of these chants, only an incomplete cassette collection floating somewhere within the church. This will be the first time the West has heard some of the most ancient Christian music. Syria is one of the least familiar of the Middle Eastern countries to people in the United States. Housing one of the oldest Christian traditions in the back streets of antiquity inspires the imagination and offers all a sense of mystical reverence. It is of the utmost importance to preserve this ancient tradition, in addition to affording the modern world an ear to this rich heritage.

My four-part objective:
1. Acquire a high-quality stereo recording of the entire Beth Gazo or “The Treasury of Chants” of the Edessian School, which would be recorded on site in the Urfalees’ church of St. George's in Aleppo. To ensure a superior recording, I have employed the services of Josh Bonati. Mr. Bonati is a Johns Hopkins University/ Peabody Conservatory graduate with a master's degree in Acoustics and Recording Arts and also holds a bachelor's degree in Acoustical Engineering from Purdue University. After completing the initial recordings, these recordings would be transferred to reel-to-reel tape and given to the Syrian Orthodox Church for archival purposes. The entire Edessian Beth Gazo would be assembled over several CDs with introductions and lyrics in Aramaic, English, and Arabic.

2. Interview and record Yousef Namak, who was 12 during the Urfalees' exile in 1924 and is one of the few, if not the last, remaining survivors. With permission, I would compile his favorite chants and have him explain their personal significance and social value. A CD of chosen chants and his testimony of the exile would be assembled for commercial sale. I have spoken with D. A. Sonneborn, Assistant Director of Smithsonian Folkways Recordings, and he has voiced his utmost enthusiasm for this project. We will be meeting in August to discuss Smithsonian involvement. He has suggested the highly regarded record label, Harmonia Mundi, for an international release.

3. Document the entire project through 35mm and digital photography, capturing the essence of the Urfalee worship, living, and heritage. In addition to photographing Aleppo, I plan to photograph the Urfalee exile route north into Turkey ending in Urfa. Renowned photojournalist, David Holloway, has joined the team and will accompanying us on all parts of the project.

4. Write a book based on this project. It will contain the story of my research and adventures into Syria and the world of the Orthodox. I am in the preliminary phase of assembling a manuscript and have not chosen a publisher.

This project will appeal to many, especially Christians. The uncovering of the incomparable heritage of the Urfalee of St. George’s Church will grab the interests of anthropologists, ethnographers, and ethnomusicologists alike while my ambitions and experiences show that anyone can do anything once they put their mind to it. The culture of the Urfalees is one that can resonate with any and all who encounter them. It is my wish to honor these ancient and largely unknown traditions.

Meeting with His Eminence

Archbisop Mor Cyril Aphrem Karim


“I think the suit’s to formal. It’s just your first meeting.”
“I am meeting with the Archbishop of the Syrian Orthodox Church. I think that’s pretty formal!”
I was nervous beyond belief and having little-to-no sense of fashion doesn’t help in times of clothing distress. I felt like a tenth-grader trying on outfits for Homecoming. I went through four shirts, three ties, and three pairs of pants. I decided to screw it and just wear a black collar shirt, dark green pants, and skip the tie. When it comes to fashion I’ve learned that Jenny’s always right.

The Archbishop called my name from the front door as Jenny and I got out of the car. St. Mark’s Syrian Orthodox Church is a converted protestant church located in the suburban streets of Teaneck, NJ. We were welcomed by his Eminence and escorted into a formal sitting room. The room had two to three dozen chairs arching off the sides of the Archbishop’s throne at the front of the room. The chairs were covered in striped fabric but the Archbishop’s throne was covered in red velvet. Resting on the throne was a large red liturgy book with a gold cross embossed on the cover.

Golden Liturgy book

Bishop's chair and liturgy book

For every couple of chairs there was a small traditional Syrian table to rest coffee or tea.

Throne and Phone

We were offered a seat and the Bishop brought in fresh coffee. I normally don’t drink coffee but took a cup to be hospitable. After setting down the coffee tray he took a seat next to his throne. This took me a little of guard and seemed to show that our meeting was informal. He wore and dark pants, a red shirt with loosened collar, and no head covering. As he sat down, I crossed by legs and realized I was wearing ankle socks. I felt like Don Johnson’s wanna-be cousin, Shaun Johnson who is always out of place.

We began discussing backgrounds, family, the usual formalities. I had spent the previous two weeks preparing a photo portfolio and a formal written proposal that I was dying to hand to him and get the party started. We chatted for ten minutes and in a attempt to transition from small talk to business I handed him my proposal and portfolio.
“These are the ideas I have been working on the past couple of weeks. Let me know what you think.”

I sat in nervous silence staring at him as he looked over the proposal. The first question he raised was concerning, “these recordings would be transferred to reel-to-reel tape and given to the Syrian Orthodox Church for archival purposes.” Josh Bonati had made the archival suggestion during a pervious phone conversation. Josh had said that tape is the best medium for storage since it’s physical. Analog parts can always be replicated so it’s a far safer medium than a digital file. I explained the advantages of tape archiving to the best of my abilities which seemed satisfactory and he continued reading. He made comments to himself and ended by saying all four points of the proposal were good. Then the bomb dropped.
“How much do you think this will cost?” I was not ready to discuss finances. I didn’t think we would get that far. I had nothing to go on except some Orbitz ticket prices from a couple of weeks prior. I had no idea what to say so, of coarse, I began to talk. “Well, there are obviously four separate parts to this project…Blah, blah, blah” I was nervously looking across the room trying to think as my mouth ran on and on.
“I don’t think that it would be fair for the Church to fund parts of the proposal that don’t directly relate to the recording of the Beth Gazo.”
“How much do you think? I can contact Father Tarzi on the west coast to help raise funds.”
“I’m not sure. I need to talk to Josh to figure costs.”
“Roughly.”
“I guess with airfare and living expenses for the month… somewhere between five to seven thousand.”
The Archbishop looked at the proposal and said “Oh, I can do that myself. This is not a problem.”
“Remember, I need to talk with Josh about costs and things.”
“Sure”
Well, I sold myself short. Pants off. Ankle socks on.
My blunder was interrupted by his cell phone ringing. He took the call and began speaking in heavy Arabic. I sat there wondering if I just screwed the project. The phone call was a few minutes so I had time to wallow in my insecurities. He got off the phone and apologized for taking the call. We had been cut off several times during the meeting because his cell phone kept ringing and his secretary wasn’t around to field calls.
“I will call Father Tarzi and His Holiness in Damascus later today to tell them of your ideas. I think this is great and is important to our people.”
“Thank you.”
“You will have full cooperation in Aleppo. The Archbishop there knows the local governments so there will be no problems if you need a cover.”
A cover? What the heck did that mean? He moved right on to the next topic.
“There should be no problems. He will arrange the people for you and they should have a place for you to stay.”
I was hiding my look of excitement as he delivered the good news. It worked. I was going to Syria.

His Eminence wanted to show me the website for the Urfalee church so we moved into his office.

Archbishop's Office

In the office

I had questions about the Church’s history, specifically the massacres of 1918. A good deal of Syrian Orthodox were part of the Armenian Genocides of WWI. From what I understand the killing was ordered by the Turks but carried out mostly by the Kurds. When it came down to killing it turned from just killing Armenians to killing all Christians. It’s estimated that +/- 90,000 Orthodox were massacred. The few that survived fled to all parts of the globe. Most fled to India where the largest population of Syrian Orthodox live today.
As we spoke a fax came in talking about a land dispute somewhere in the middle east that concerned the Church. What caught my eye more than the subject was the fax cover page. Someone was sending a fax from Burke, VA right down the street from my Father’s church. I couldn’t believe it. The bishop explained that the person sending the fax was a pillar of the DC Syrian Orthodox community. I was dumfounded that there was a Syrian Orthodox community where I grew up. I took a copy of the cover letter to get in touch with the man when I got home.
The phone rang again and he had to take it. He gave me several books and pamphlet’s which Jenny took to the car as I took photos of the place. After he got off the phone and took me over to the sanctuary.
It looked like a normal protestant church with wooden pews, and dark carpet.

Archbishop and 360 yr old liturgy book

Baptism Pillar

The stage was clearly not protestant. There were ornate chambers on either side of a colorful curtain adorned with Jesus.

St. Mark's Sanctuary

Bible and Holy of Holies Curtain

Behind the curtain was the Holy of holies. I didn’t know that Christian churches had them. As the Archbishop pulled back the curtain I removed my shoes and approached the Holy of holies. In Old Testament times the Holy of holies was “the second or interior portion of the tabernacle. It was left in total darkness. No one was permitted to enter it except the high priest, and that only once a year. It contained the ark of the covenant only (Ex. 25:10-16). It was in the form of a perfect cube of 20 cubits.” The Orthodox Holy of holies housed a communion chalice, a bible, a cross, candles, and some flowers, symbols of God’s new covenant with man. I took some time and took several photographs.

Holy of Holies

Holy of Holies Close Up

Cross from Holy of Holies

Communion Chalice

By this time it was 1:30 and we had been there for two and a half hours subsisting on just a Luna bar and a hand full pistachios. Jenny was at her end and everyone’s blood sugar was definitely on the low side of life. We walked back over to the office, took portraits, said our good byes, and were off to lunch.

Just the two of us

His Eminence had to stay behind and take care of business matters before leaving town the following day. I walked down the church steps shocked, amazed, and dazed that I am going to Syria. It was one of the only times I’ve felt that I was actually following God’s plan.

Monday, July 25, 2005

I am a patient boy..

The past two days have been really hectic. I spent seven hours on the phone today dealing with doctors and insurance companies. I am going on tour with Dillinger Escape Plan and Megadeth next week as Ben's (DEP) massage therapist. I am trying to get the procedures pre-certified and it's taking forever. In the midst of being on hold all day I booked our Honeymoon tickets to Costa Rica! We're getting closer.

Yesterday I went to Ozzfest to see an old friend who was managing one of the Swedish bands. The guitarist hurt his back and I ended working on him. They were really cool and down to earth.

JasonMassages

I am still working on the short about the Archbishop meeting and beginning to work on an article about Peru. Posts should come with more frequency.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Update

I have been incredibley busy the past two weeks. My Syria project is developing into something far larger than I expected. I am meeting with the Archbishop of the Syrian Orthodox Church on Monday in Teaneck, NJ to discuss my ideas and how to move forward from here. I have also spoken to the Smithsonian a couple of times and they expressed high interest in the project. When my proposal is done I'll post a copy of it. This week, aside from working, I have been assembling my photo portfolio.

I have tons of news but need to wait a couple of days to see what i'll be doing over the next month or so. I'll post news as I find out. Time to sleep.

Sunday, July 03, 2005

Waking up to Panic

The van had broken down for at least the 10th time on that first Frodus tour. It was Wednesday May 15th 1996 and we were on the way to Iowa after playing a basement in Minneapolis. We had a week left of our first full US tour. Over the first three weeks our van went to hell. In Carlsbad, New Mexico transmission fluid leaked all over the engine causing the rubber mounts to dissolve which in turn caused the engine to fall and rest on the chassis vibrating so loudly we had to yell at the top of our lungs to hear each other. The rear differential plug was loosened by the vibrations which caused the rear axle oil to drain. We fortunately got those fixed before anything seized. In Arizona, the day before Memorial Day, ended up needing a new transmission. Being a holiday weekend they couldn’t get the parts on time so we ended up in Tempe, AZ for a week canceling all of California and Utah. We then drove straight to Rapid City, South Dakota from Tempe. I drove the stretch from Taos, NM straight to Rapid City. Over the coarse of ten hours I drove through rain, fog, snow, sleet, and hail. By the time we reached Minnesota we had blown a head gasket and were overheating constantly. It was getting so bad I pulled off at one point and had to put ditch water in the radiator. On the way to Minneapolis the blades on the cooling fan ripped off severing wires as they flew out. The van still drove but finally gave up on the way to Iowa. We stood on the side of the road for 45 minutes trying to flag down help. Keep in mind this was before cell phone. I was so fed up that I picked up a chunk of rubber lying on the side of the road and was getting ready to beam it into traffic. I figured at least someone would stop to yell at me then maybe we could get help. Just as I was ready to get it started Shelby ran over and said someone had pulled over.

Paul used to be a mechanic but hurt his back so he began fixing up cars at home in his spare time. He extended his services if we had the van towed back to his place. Thank God for AAA Plus! 100 free towing miles! The tow truck dropped us in Paul’s driveway 40 miles later. His house was little and homely complete with wife, Susan, and a baby. Shelby and I went with Paul to find van parts while Howard and Ben stayed back. That Susan’s brother, Jason, brought over a couple of Little Caesar’s Pizza and we rented “Swimming with Sharks” with Kevin Spacey and Frank Whaley. It was supposed to be a comedy but I remember it being pretty messed up. Watching a messed up movie in a stranger’s house in the dark felt strange. Howard and Ben slept in the Van while Shelby and I braved the house. It was a surreal and uneasy night.

I woke the next morning to whispering above me. I didn’t open my eyes and pretended to be asleep.
“Should we put a hex on’em?”
“I had a dream I slept with the drummer. We made love all night.”
“Did you tell Paul? “
“I didn’t tell ‘em. He’d kill ‘em”

I laid face down in utter terror with no idea what to do.

“You can’t tell Paul he’ll freak out.”
“What should we do to?”

Out of all the things that has happened to me over the years this ranks as one of the strangest. We had all seen “Pulp Fiction” so I wasn’t sure where this was headed. They wanted to put a hex on us? I stirred in my sleeping bag a little and faked a loud yawn.
“Mornin! Is Paul around?”
“He’s fixin’ the van.”
“Did he already go to the junk yard?”
“He’s been waitin for you to get up.”

Susan was on the couch with her brother Jason. Her teeth were twisted and stained. The concept of all night love making with her made me shiver. She asked if I was cold. I said, “I am now”.

Shelby was still sleeping so I shook him a little and suggested he come with me to the junk yard.
“I’m really tired. I’ll stay here and sleep.”
“You really need to get up NOW and come with me.”
“It’s cool I’ll stay here and sleep.”
“GET UP! You’re coming with me!”
Susan and Jason just sat on the couch looking at us. I was absolutely terrified what they were going to do to Shelby if I left him there alone.

We went to the junkyard, got our parts, and headed back to the house. The whole time with Paul I was really nervous. I kept away from Susan and Jason for the hour or so we waited for Paul to put the finishing touches on the van. Once fixed we rallied everyone together for a group shot and were off to Iowa. I can’t believe I was only 19.

Paul, Susan, Jason, and Frodus

Susan, Paul (white shirt), Jason (brother), Me, Shelby, Howard

Monday, June 27, 2005

Edessa is Happening

I just got off the phone with Archbishop Mor Cyril Aphrem Karim head of the Archdiosese of Eastern United States Syriac Orthodox Church we spoke for about 20 min and he expressed great interest in my ideas for recording and orchestrating the Chant of the Urfalees. He wanted to arrange a meeting to talk in person in the next couple of weeks. Tentatively I'll be heading to Aleppo, Syria next Easter for a month recording and documenting the Urfalees.

Pain.com/overuse/getsome

Last week was my first week back at work and I over did it by doing 34 hours of massage which re-inflamed my wrist. I just got back from the doctors and I have to obviously cut down my schedule if I want to save my wrists. During the time off I spent many an hour sitting on a posture correcting chair writng and scanning photos. It's the kind where you sit down on your shins which corrects your back posture. The thing is, now my knees hurt. I'll be 29 next week. See you in therapy!

office chair

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

World Without End

Bill, Nate, and I were sitting around a couple of weeks ago brainstorming band ideas. Bill and I both play drums and have been trying to figure out a way to play together for years. All three of us are devout Christians and always joke about starting a Christian Rock band or something. Bill was showing us some old Gregorian chants he found online which sparked an idea. What if we used rock instruments to create music to go with the old chants? Bill and I began brainstorming and came up with several ideas. I went home really excited and told everyone that their homework was to find a chant online that we should try and compose for.

I read a book three years ago by William Dalrymple called, "From the Holy Mountain" which mentioned a form of ancient chant currently being practiced in Syria. I searched online and came across an interview he did describing the chant of the Urfalees. They worship at St. Georges Syriac Orthodox Church in Aleppo, Syria and still speak, read, and write in Aramaic. It is thought that the Urfalees chant is the oldest original Christian music dating from the late first century CE. According to Gianmaria Malacrida is thought that the chants were composed by St. Ephrem the Syrian but he took the rhythms and melodies from popular Gnostic songs written by the Edessan heretic Bardaisan.

I emailed Dalrymple and asked him how to find the Urfalees and he promptly wrote back the next day with full directions on how to find their church in Syria. To my knowledge there are no available public recordings of the Urfalees. My idea is to travel to Syria next March and record the ancient chants of the Urfalees. Then come back to the US and compose music to be played with the chants and make a record. I have been in correspondence with the Eastern United States Archbishop of the Syriac Orthodox Church and he seems interested. He actually used to be the Bishop of Aleppo years ago so he has to have some knowledge of these people. I hope to gain support of the Syriac Orthodox and make this a major production.

This is the biggest idea I've had and it combines every interest I've got. I have been corresponding with a grant administrator so well see what happens. The name we've been kicking around would be World Without End, but now I might be feeling Edessa. We'll see.

Monday, June 20, 2005

The 12 Commandments

After my bus to Ramallah was bombed I decided to spend my last week in Israel in a rental car exploring every corner of the country. After winding through Galilee, the Golan Heights, Nazareth, and Haifa I decided it was time to head south into to sands of the Negev. Jamie, Yuda, and I drove from Haifa straight the Mizpe Ramon Crater. Mizpe Ramon lies in the heart of the Negev between Beersheba and Elat and was once part of the ancient spice route. It is about 25 miles long and between 1 and 6 miles wide. The plan was to camp for a night somewhere inside the crater then get up the next day to search for the flour cave, Rambo’s cave, and Masada. The flour cave was rumored to be coated in a fine white chalk located in a gorge on the Amiaz Plain. Somewhere in the hills North of the Amiaz Plain and close to the Dead Sea was the cave that Rambo fell into while fighting the Russians in Rambo III. (It was supposed to take place in Afghanistan but filmed in Israel.) Once in the cave he cauterized himself with gunpowder and a match to seal an arrow wound in his side. After reliving Rambo’s pain we would head to Masada to relive the courage of the Jews holding back the Romans.

mizpe_ramon map

NOT MY PHOTO The Craters edge. (I did not know how to use a camera on this trip)
Mizpe Ramon Crater, Isreal (not my photo)

I was driving the smallest cheapest two door rental possible with a signed contract stating not to drive “off road”. There were three of us, a guitar, and gear all over the car. We picked up food in Beersheba and headed straight to Mizpe. We descended into the crater and wandered the roads checking out the different geological oddities. We arrived on the late afternoon and began to look for a place to camp after a hour and a half. As we wandered the dirt roads we came across a sign, “4x4 Only.” We parked and walked down the path to see how bad it was. I definitely had four wheels and can definitely drive a car most anywhere. Bring it!

The Ford Fiesta did us well for the most part. The road was rough with rocks and gravel but not terrible. There was a decent amount of scraping involved and every couple hundred yards the guys had to get out of the car so we wouldn’t bottom out. I definitely got stuck a couple of times going down steeper ledges but the guys pushed me out no problem. The problem came about 45 minutes down the trail. The drop was to big for a two door hatchback to handle. I found this out the hard way. Not even 4 inches onto the drop I bottomed out really bad and thought I put a hole in the gas tank. It took the guys thirty minutes to get us out of that one. There was a steep small hill I could try to get over which would put me crossing a huge flat rock and then dropping down to the sand which seemed doable. The guys tossed the small rocks out of my way and stood on the other side of the hill to coach. I drove up slowly and once I got the rear wheels at hill’s base all I could see was the sky so I hit the gas hard. I sat looking into the clouds going nowhere. I coasted down and tried again with more juice. I flew up and over scraping the crap out of the bottom. I drove across the flat rock for 50 feet then dropped onto the sand and hit the trail. Get some!

We drove another ten minutes and found a good place to camp. It was sandy so I naturally did donuts around bushes, trees, rocks. We were in the middle of no where just keepin it real. We looked around for a good place to set up camp and decided to set up under the little overhang of a huge rock.

Time to build a fire. We grabbed the stones that lined the path to make afire pit. There were dry trees everywhere so we pulled a couple of small trees and bushes out of the ground and dragged them over to camp to be torched.

Tofu hot dogs were the meal of the evening. Jamie pulled out his guitar after dinner and we sang and yelled for a while. The three of us fell asleep gazing up at the stars. I couldn’t get over that I was falling asleep on the same land David, Moses, and Abraham used sleep on. It’s still hard to grasp.

I woke up the next morning to an Israeli Solider standing over me taking my photo. What the hell was happening? He started yelling at me and continued taking photo’s. I kept on saying AMERICAN over and over. Yuda and Jamie shot up and everyone began shouting in Hebrew. The solider calmed down and kept on talking with the other two guys. Off in the distance I saw a line of people walking arranging the rocks that lined the road. This looked bad.

Apparently we weren’t supposed to be camping there. The solider was really pissed and was taking us to jail for some major fines. We didn’t get cuffed but we did get escorted. Yuda was the only Israeli citizen so he had to ride in the soldier’s Range Rover. We carefully maneuvered around all the rocks just as well as the range rover until we got to the big drop. Jamie got out and threw the path rocks out of the way as I retraced my steps by driving off the trail, up across the flat rock, and then attempted to get over the hill which was steeper on this side. The Solider was waiting on the other side and couldn’t see where I had gone. It took me a couple of tries but I backed up and soared over the hill almost leaving the ground. I shot the solider a thumbs up and we were on our way to jail. “Did your friend do that on way the in?!” I was so proud I made it over that hill I was smiling ear to ear. He led us to a sign before taking us out. There were 12 rules boldly displayed in white. We had broke nine of them. I felt horrible. I mean really horrible.

I don’t remember every rule we broke but there were three that the really stuck out.
“Do not leave trail” – There were donut tracks in the sand
“Do not touch the plants” – not only did I touch them, I ripped them out of the ground and burnt them!
“No Fire” – our fire had made a huge black stain running up the side of the rock.

The Soldier told us there was a water hole just over the hill from our camp site where Ibex drink. They frighten easy and we had been up all night yelling and singing most likely keeping them from drinking. Pants were officially off!

He didn’t cuff us or put us into a cell. We waited in the break room as he figured out our punishment. He wanted to fine us individually $100 for each rule broken. $2700 worth of stupidity!!!!!! I didn’t have $900 bucks. I told him repeatedly that I honestly didn’t see the sign and would’ve never touched a bush much less tear it out of the ground and burn it had I known. I felt really American just driving into a crater yelling and burning things. After 2 hours of pleading we were let off with a modest fine of $100 each. We drove north towards the Amiaz Plain bummed out and embarrassed. The Flour Cave was in a gorge and we wasted many a minute looking for Rambo’s Paradise. Time was slipping so we had to give up the search for Rambo, skip Masada, and get back to Jerusalem to return the car. I have never felt so stupid as the moment I stood in front that sign realizing how bad I had just screwed up.

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Intro to My Team in Peru

Edwin was my driver for the first two days of the Chachapoyan leg of the trip. He drove Araceli and myself to Lamud, the Quiojta Caves, City of the Dead, and to the Karajia sarcophagus. He took his wagon over the roughest terrain I have been on. I will be writing much more about all of these people and places. This is just a visual introduction.

Edwin the Driver

This is Nelson (left) and Araceli (right) resting after our first day of hiking. Nelson was 28 and Araceli 26 at the time. When Nelson isn't guiding he works on a coffee plantation with his fiance's family. Araceli is an archeologist and accompanies many expeditions doubling as a translator.

Nelson & Araceli resting after first day

This is Nelson's mule that carried our gear through the mountains. I called him Platero.

Platero

Juan was Nelson's cousin and came for the first 2 days of the trek. He was a quiet guy and led Platero most of the time.

Juan

I was so tired and sick by the time I reached the coast, I completely forgot these guy's names. They drove me for 17 hours straight with stops only for food, fuel, and bathroom. This photo isn't very good because I hadn't eaten a full meal in 3 days, hardly slept the past 36 hours, and had been crapping liquid for days. See you in hell.

Finally Made It

Thursday, June 16, 2005

'twas a Sonny Christmas

I was going through my files this morning and I came across a very disturbing letter I got a little before Christmas of fourth grade. I had just moved from Pensacola to Satellite Beach, Fl.

“Dear Jason,

I heard about lazer tag. I think it’s neat. There was a murder on our street at Sonny’s house. I hope you get what you want. I hope you like your 5th series Garbage Pail Kids.

Love,
Cody
MERRY CHRISTMAS”

Sonny was the neighborhood drunk and insanely mean. His nephew, Shane, would stay for a few weeks during the summer. We all thought Shane was cool because he had bullet belt with live ammo that Sonny gave him. I remember the day Shane got the bullet belt. I remember Sonny handing it to Shane then picking up and tossing me in the air. We were their back yard and Sonny reeked of beer. Onetime, Shane and I were at Sonny’s house walking out the door to play in the back yard. Sonny was sitting in a recliner in the dark watching TV. When we were almost out the door Sonny yelled, “Shane! Change the TV station. “We’re almost outside. Can’t you do it?” “SHANE CHANGE THE TV STATION!!!” Sonny then threw a rock through the TV screen and then screamed, “LOOK WHAT YOU MADE ME DO!!!” Then he got up and threw the TV through the window. I ran home petrified.

One day there was a girl scout selling cookies door to door and a bunch of us were outside hanging out on the driveway. When she came by us we warned her not to go to Sonny’s house and said that he was crazy. We all watch her ring the bell and waited for chaos. Sonny opened the door and stared down at her as said her whole sales pitch. The girl couldn’t have been more than 8 years old. Sonny swatted the clipboard out of her hands and slammed the door in her face. We all laughed since she didn’t listen.

My mother said that a few months after we moved Sonny dismembered his wife and put her in the freezer. Sometimes you can just feel when someone is bad.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

Kuelap Photo Set

These are photos taken from the last day of my excursion into the Gran Vilaya Valley. All photo's were taken w/ a Nikon F3 using Fuji 400 Superia film

The Great Kuelap

This is the outside wall to the fortress of Kuelap. It's estimated that the Chachapoyan confederation used over 100,000 stone blocks, each weighing 200 to 450 lbs, to make the massive structure. Kuelap is 1919 feet long, 330 feet wide, and ranges between 20 and 50 feet tall. Larger View

Outside Kuelap Walls

To show some scale.

Traditional House

Reconstructed typical Chachapoyan structure.

Stone Snake

An example of Chachapoyan stone work. This particular piece represents a serpent.

Stone Face of Tintero

This face guards the entrance stairs to an inverted, cone-shaped building believed to be a giant solar calendar.

Cat Eyes

Another example of Chachapoyan stone work thought to represent jaguar eyes.

House Ruins

Kuelap Ruins

Most of the ruins are still covered with bromealids, moss, and flowers.

Llamas

Llamas in the PIT!!!

Cloud Forest Bromealid

Typical cloud forest bromealid

Kuelap Watchtower

Military watch tower

Valley Overlook

View off the watch tower

Deadly Milipede

Deadly millipede

Flowers Over Valley

Flowers for Algernon

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Wiping in the Lord's House

I slept through my alarm this morning and woke up an hour late. I brushed my teeth, threw on my suit, and ran down stairs to meet my ride. Nate and I were going to the National Cathedral to attend the ordination of a friend who was becoming a deacon of the Episcopal Church. He’ll as deacon for a year then hopefully be pronounced as priest.

Once at the Cathedral, Nate grabbed us seats and I headed straight for the men’s room. A mother and her two boys were right behind me. “After you go potty meet mommy back here.” I snagged the stall in the back corner of the bathroom and got down to business. Sam, the youngest of the two boys, took the stall next to me. He couldn’t have been more than four years old but Sam’s bowels were definitely all grown up. I think he dropped a bag of cement. At the delivery had been made Sam started to shout, “Get mom! Adam get mom!” “What’s wrong Sam?” Adam couldn’t have been over eight. “I need help wiping!”

Why was this happening? Sam continued to yell, “Get mom! I need help wiping!” Adam opened the door and yelled “Mom! Sam needs help wiping!” “Tell Sam he has to do it himself. You’re in the men’s room.” “I can’t Mom! Help!” “Adam help you’re brother!” “Okay!”

So there’s a kid wiping his younger brother next to me. What was happening? I had no idea what to do so I sat in dead silence listening to chaos.

Adam had a hard time wiping his brother so then he went to get mom. “Is there anyone in there?” The boys yelled “no!” My heart was beating out of my chest. Mom came in and saw my shoes! “There’s someone in here! Come on!” She grabbed here kids and ran out. I don’t know if Sam was ever properly wiped. I put my pants on and left. I had a hard time trying to stop myself from laughing. Sam’s monumental deposit killed my worship experience. I had a hard time focusing on God’s presence after that. Better luck next time Sam.

Friday, June 10, 2005

Slayer of Galilee

I was at my parents' house last week sorting through old boxes of stuff and I came across a story I wrote in fourth grade. "The Sidewinder Adventure" is about a day in the life of a snake living in the Sahara. The animals it hunted were a gerbil, a kangaroo rat, an ostrich, and a baby snake. In the end he only killed and ate the other snake. In third grade I copied all thirty-two entry on snakes out of the encyclopedia and handed it in as a book report. My teacher was totally baffled since she never assigned a book report. I love snakes.

In 2001 I took a huge trip to the middle east spending a month in Egypt, a week in Jordan, and three weeks in Israel/ Palestine. While in Israel the second Intifada began and things got intense. One evening I was laying on the floor of a friend's apartment watching Simpson's reruns when tank fire began. I had no idea what to do but panic. The concussions so loud they were shaking the windows. "What do we do? This is insane!!" "Don't worry about it. It's like two miles from here. We're totally safe. They are firing in Gilo they won't come up here." I sat back and prayed they were right. Later that week I was planning to take a bus into Ramallah to check out some Turkish baths. The day that I was researching the bus route I was to take that same bus exploded. I settled on a rental a car. I convinced Jamie to take off work and be my guide for a week.

One night Jaime and I drove into the hills of Galilee to find some hot springs. We showed up without enough money to get in and none of my persuasive powers worked on the local Israelis. Defeated, we got back in the car and headed back to the place we were staying. As we left the parking lot I spotted a huge snake coiled in the road at the top of a hill. I knew someone would hit it so I parked the car so the headlights were on the snake. I hopped out and walked slowly up to it. The thing must have been at least five feet long. Jaime was scared but didn't know what was going on. Tanks were firing two miles from his place and we didn't miss a joke on the Simpson's but a snake in the road was scary! I really wanted to get the snake off the road so I began to look for something to move it.

Just as I left the headlight's beam a second car pulled up to see what was going on. The driver had his window down and saw the snake. "Don't pick it up. It's dangerous." I didn't believe him and moved closer. This time I noticed that it was bleeding from its side. It had been slightly run over and was coiled in defense. Now I really had to get the thing off the road. As I walked closer the guy in the car yelled "Don't get to close! That's Palestine's most poisonous viper." (actually named zefa) That's that all that needed to be said. The idea of moving the snake left with the guy's taillights rounding a far off corner.

Palestinian viper

"Jaime, we got to kill it. It's just laying here dying. I'll run it over with the car. What do you think? I have a Slayer tape with
me."

We both got in the car and looked squeamishly at each other. I gave a little speech about how it was dying and most likely in pain so we had to kill it. We sat for a second wondering if we were going to do it. I put on first song side one, War Ensemble, one of the all time best Slayer songs. As the guitar kicked in I floored the car in neutral with my foot on the pedal waiting for the massive drum fill as my cue. When the main riff kicked in I slammed the car into first, spinning the tires, and full on destroying the viper. We both yelled as we felt the bump under both tires. I didn't let off the gas and we flew down the road nervously laughing in disbelief. We both yelled and laughed for atleast ten minutes. I had just killed Palestine’s most venomous snake listening to Slayer in the region where Jesus began his ministry. It seemed so perfect for a metal loving Christian.

Monday, June 06, 2005

Peru

I am going through hundreds of Peru photo's this week. I shot the trip w/ film which takes much longer to work with. My general idea is to scan all 22 rolls and then work on several series while writing the accompanying stories. It will take a while, but they will come.

This is the archeologist that accompanied most of the trip. This was taken on a lookout tower in the ancient city of Kuelap which is located deep in the northern cloud forests of Peru's Amazonas region.

Araceli at Kuelap

Map of Chachapoyas Peru

Saturday, June 04, 2005

Down With The Sickness

This morning was Race for the Cure here in DC. I went to cheer Jenny on and to see friends walking with SSE, a foundation started by good friend Mark Beemer after his wife died of breast cancer. I have never attended a cancer event. Not because I didn'’t want to but because I never afforded myself the opportunity. There were 40,000 people in the race and 3,000 breast cancer survivors. It was really great to see so many people out supporting cancer research. People were running and holding up signs and banners with their team name or sponsor. Some were holding huge pictures of their dead. Running as a memorial. I couldn'’t begin to think what was going through their heads. They with larger than life photos of their loved one as others ran and smiled past them. It was absolutely heart wrenching. I had a rough time holding back tears.

Alanna and I used to be envious of women with breast cancer. It was a strain of cancer that people had heard of, it even had a logo. You could buy cd’s of your favorite musicians raising money for breast cancer. Meanwhile, Alanna and I suffered in obscurity wiLiposarcomaoma. No one had heard of it. It took the doctors 2 weeks to even know what they cut out of her. It'’s strange to wish for a “popular sickness. Cancer is cancer. But it felt like there was more regard to breast, prostate, and good ‘ole colon cancer.

MacDonald'’s was handing out hats after the race. The hats were white with a green fork wrapped in the pink ribbon. It was a great logo. McDonald'’s food contributes to the cancer epidemic. When someone eats like crap their body wastes so much energy on digestion and manufacturing nutrients (that we should be eating). The body then breaks down and loses the ability to fight disease due to mass fatigue. It's mind blowing that 40,000 people will get up early on Saturday to run, but spend little to no time learning how to really eat properly. I don'’t eat close to perfect all the time, but I try. I think if people stopped eating for convenience and tried eating for nutrients we would have a lot less sickness. I am not down with the sickness.

"Let Food Be Your Medicine" Hippocrates (460BC)

Friday, June 03, 2005

Scanning everything in my path

Since the Decahedron tour is off I'm going to stay home and work on scanning my negative library. I have hundreds of negatives to weed through, scan, and tone which takes an enormous amount of time. I hope to have a website by the end of the summer. Tomorrow is race for the cure. Jenny's running so I'll be up super early!

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

To The End of The Island

Montauk Beach, NY

Sunday March 27th through Thursday March 30th mark the hardest days I’ve lived through. This year I planned a small trip to NYC to take care of some business and get away. Five years ago on those dates were Alanna’s last days losing to cancer. Every year I think I’ll be fine then it sneaks up on me and hits hard. Five years is a rough number to deal with. Five years is a solid chunk of time. Five years feels like a standard measurement of time. So much has changed over the past five years. I don’t play music that often anymore. In fact, I’ve played drums less than ten times since August of last year. I’m now a massage therapist and work late hours so I don’t get to see much of my friends. My life is drasticaly different and it’s hard to deal with sometimes. The original plan was to finish up the new Decahedron ep in NYC on Monday March 28th then late Tuesday morning drive out to Fire Island and spend the next two days alone riding my bike and taking photos.

Manhattan was being drowned under three inches of rain while I was trying to find BH Photo that Monday morning. After loading up on photo supplies I headed down to the studio in Chelsea to finish mastering the new Decahedron ep. The plan to bike Tuesday and Wednesday wasn’t going to happen in a downpour. In between songs I was desperately searching online to find a cheap plane ticket to somewhere else. Somewhere dry and warm. After franticly coming up with nothing the engineer asked what the forecast was for the next two days. According to weather.com Tuesday was supposed to be all right and Wednesday supposed to be amazing.

That night I picked up a copy of “Short Bike Rides Long Island” and there was nothing about Fire Island in the book. Not only that, but the Fire Island ferries weren’t running frequently so I was going to be stuck on the island all night. It was time to think up plan B.

I had been reading a book called “In the Slick of the Cricket” about infamous shark fisherman Frank Mundus which took place in and out of Montauk harbor. Apparently Quint from “Jaws” was loosely based off of Mundus who caught a record 4500 lb White Shark back in the 60’s off Montauk and the jaws were rumored to be in a bar somewhere in the harbor.I wanted to see the jaws and eat some good seafood. So I decided to ride to the end of the island to find a meal and some teeth.

Late Tuesday morning I drove out to Bridgehampton and parked behind the Episcopal Church on Main Street. The day was overcast and in the upper 40’s. Wednesday’s promise of sunshine and mid 50’s made the gray sky bearable. I brought clothes for 2 days and most of my manual photo gear adding at least an extra 35 lbs to the ride. I strapped down my gear, clipped in, and rode due east on Highway 27.

Loaded Down

27 was two lanes with a bike shoulder and moderate traffic. The towns were small and quaint. I could see why city folk would love to get away to this part of the state. I rode past The Palm and Tiffany & CO. in East Hampton followed by a small movie theater and 2 old windmills. After the town of Amagansett the wooden homes and quaint shops dissolve into run down resorts, old clam huts, and beat-up seasonal restaurants.

Old Clam Shack

Closed For The Season

Run Down Shack

Halfway to Montauk I pulled into an abandoned resort to check out the beach. It was about 3:30 in the afternoon, misting rain, and getting colder by the minute. I grabbed my camera and walked against the wind towards the beach. The path wound its way through a field of dunes anchored by pine trees and scrub brush. I could hear the ocean’s surge as the path led down to the beach. The dunes hissed with waving sea oats as they sloped and gave way to the tides. The beach was shallow with 15 or so feet between dunes edge and sea foam. There wasn’t a footprint in site. No sign of humanity as far as the eye could see except for a tumbling plastic bag. The waves were choppy and breaking close to shore under a grey sky and strong winds. The ocean was rough slate without the sun warming color into it. After inhaling the salt air and shooting a few frames, I got back on the saddle and continued to ride.

Long Island Beach

Just outside Montauk route 27 splits and I followed the Old Montauk Highway into town. The road seemed less traveled and was next to Hither Hills State Park. I mashed my way through the hills and passed Gurney’s Spa Resort. I was tempted to stop in and get a massage but I needed to get into town before the sunset. I found out, after I got home, that people come from all over the world to sit in Gurney’s saltwater baths. Had I known I would have been added to the list of travelers.

The road into town paves its way into a small circle with a handful of shops and a few restaurants. That’s it. Downtown is about 100 yards long. Montauk is not a town but a village. I blinked my way through “downtown” and was headed for the harbor. I was exhausted and starving at this point and couldn’t wait to eat someone’s catch of the day.

The harbor was smaller than I expected but packed with boats. I walked around a pier for a few minutes checking out the huge spools of industrial wire and massive ropes keeping the boats tied to the docks. It was about 4:30 and all the boats seemed to be in for the night. I saw a couple of guys operating a forklift and walked over for some dinner advice. “Everything is closed out here. There’s a couple a places in town. Shagwong should be open.” All the restaurants opened for the season on Friday, it was Wednesday. Two days early. The bar with the jaws wasn’t open. Thanks for coming. I really didn’t want to eat at a place called Shagwong after riding 30 miles.

I rode back to town and got a room at the Shepherds Neck Inn. Richard, the manager, was short and stocky with grey hair and matching beard. The room was advertised for $59 and I jokingly asked if there was a discount for bike riders. Richard turned sideways and began speaking close to the wall. “Why do they always want a discount? The room is 59 bucks! Why do they want a discount? I’m not the owner I’m just the manager. I can’t make that decision!” After his rant he turned back to face me as if that was normal. I took the room. When asked how long he had been in Montauk, Richard bent over the counter looked me in the eye and launched into an amazing monologue.

“ I was born right here in Montauk and then moved down to New Orleans in my twenties. I was down there about twenty years. Came back home 12 years ago. Don’t ever go back home…It’s never the same. It’s never what you left it. It’s never what you remember. This place used to be a quiet fishing village now it’s overrun with money. Never the same!” Then Richard suggested Shagwong as well. Shagwag it was!

Room 109 was your run of the mill hotel room. Nothing stood out. I hopped into a super hot shower and headed over to Shagwong for the best tuna dinner I ever had. Caught that morning and cook rare. I felt full and extremely exhausted. I went back to the room and ended up falling asleep watching The Apprentice.

I got up at 5 am and headed down to Montauk Point for sunrise. By the time I got down there the sun was almost up. It was in the low 40’s and my hands were freezing from carrying a metal tripod.

Sunrise @ Montauk Point

I love watching the sunrise. It’s a reminder that there will always be another day. The world progresses regardless of what you’re going through. I sat on the rocks and stared out into the ocean as my thoughts drifted. Five years previous was the last morning I saw Alanna alive, if that’s what you want to call it. She was hooked up to a morphine drip and was basically a vegetable. I didn’t have a specific thought from that day but just rememebered feeling the deepest sorrow I have ever felt. I thought of the massive shark Frank Mundus caught not far from where I was sitting. I thought about my new life with Jenny and smiled. Sunrise brings a sense of being taken care of. God has always been associated with light. I think it’s because light brings promise and hope when times are dark.

Montauk Lighthouse

After shooting 2 rolls of film I backtracked five miles for breakfast. I decided on John’s Pancake House, a little diner on the outskirts of downtown’s circle.

Mr. John's Pancake House

I sat at the bar and had banana walnut pancakes,home fries, toast, and eggs. All for $7. Not too bad. There were three regulars in the place and the waitress knew them all. They were talking about their kids and discussing the fresh pastries that were delivered two or three times a week.

Mr. John's Bar

Midway through my short stack, someone was hollering from the kitchen, “How do you spell Fajita! F-A-H-I-T-A?” Everyone discussed the limitless possibilities of spelling it but no one was getting it right. After a couple of minutes of really bad Wheel of Fortune contesting, I spoke up and tossed in the “J”. The lady at the end of the bar agreed with my spelling and the day’s specials went up. Time to leave.

I rode back through East Hampton then headed northwest towards Sag Harbor. Sag Harbor was very quaint with small streets, wooden houses, and white fences. There was supposed to be a great whaling museum downtown but I wanted to eat and head up to Shelter Island before I took a long break. Lunch was two Luna bars and a banana eaten on Long Warf looking out over Sag Harbor Bay. Seagulls perched on old pilings and hovered over the docks searching for food. The sun was in full and the day was warming into the 50’s. There were several vans parked on the wharf enjoying a sunny lunch. One guy leaned out of his window. “ Wish I was out there with ya! It’s a perfect day for riding. Where ya headed?” “Not sure. Most likely Shelter Island. Is it far from here?” “Not at all, maybe 3 or 4 miles. You have to take the ferry. It’s like five bucks roundtrip.” Good idea.

Ferry to Shelter Island

The road wound its way into North Haven and ended at the water. The ferry pulled up I coasted on. It pulled out and crossed a small sound to dock on Shelter Island. It took about ten minutes. All the cars pulled off and I was left with a flat tire. I have no idea how I got it but I wheeled my bike off into a small parking area to change intertubes.

Flat Tire

Minutes later, another cyclist came off the ferry and asked if I needed any help with the tire or photos. I had set up the tripod to capture the flat. The whole process took about 30 minutes. I mounted up and began riding towards the north end. Ten minutes into the island another rider pulled up and we started talking.

Jeffery was a corporate attorney taking a day off of work. He asked if I was married. I was nervous where the conversation was headed. Jeffery was wearing a sleeveless shirt. He had been married for years and that’s why he was skipping work and out on his bike. He wanted a little time to himself. We chatted about twenty minutes and then took our separate paths. I passed by a beach and veered down the hill to shoot a couple of frames. The sky was a bright blue and the water was three shades deeper. The breeze was gentle and warm.

Gardiners Bay, Shelter Isand

I walked in the sand for a bit then rode around the northeern tip. Shelter Island Sound was surrounded by massve houses with amazing docks and piers. Every yard was well kept with perfect green grass. The place looked like a movie set.

Shelter Island Mansion

I rode into Shelter Island Heights to get something to drink. I had ridden 50 miles with little water. The only place open was a high-end deli with fresh meats and cheeses with a small grocery area stocked with health foods. I got a Gatorade and sat outside on a bench. It had been a long day.

I was still trying to get back to the Sag Harbor Whaling Museum so I took the quickest route back to the ferry. All the other cyclists ended up on the ferry as well. It was a little awkward trying to figure out conversation protocol. We all silently agreed on “How was your ride?” I trudged up the steep hill and began the ride back home. I tried to take an alternate route back into Sag Harbor but bypassed it and decided to skip the whaling museum and head back to Bridgehampton. I rode through acres and acres of cleared farmland. It was getting late in the day and the clouds were rolling in fading blue skies into grey heavens.

I arrived in Bridgehampton hungry and spent. I stretched, changed, and drove towards the sun. I drove for an hour or so and hoped to watch the sunset from some amazing seafood restaurant. Little did I know that Long Island drastically goes down hill west of the Hamptons. The mom-and-pop shops and two lane roads quickly dissolved into strip malls and highways. Decent food seemed bleak. There wasn’t a seafood restaurant in sight, not even a Capt’n D’s. I was hoping for some salmon or tuna but got nothing. I bought some nuts at the gas station and kept on driving. At the point of utter fatigue I made the largest diet compromise in at least eight years when I pulled into a KFC parking lot. I had not eaten KFC since 1994. I had a small piece of chicken here or there but nothing on the KFC level. I was actually excited about trying the Original Recipe again. I ordered an Original Recipe chicken sandwich, potato wedges, and a medium Mountain Dew. Possibly the most unhealthy meal you could have after a long ride. I justified myself by repeating that it did have protein, carbs, and caffeine. It was horrible! It sucked so bad!! I will admit to eating a little Chick-fil-a a couple of months ago and that was good but KFC was terrible. I mean horrible. I drove the six and a half hours back to DC wired and feeling like I had swallowed cement. KFC screwed up my digestive system for a week and a half.

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Love In a Elevator

Today was supposed to begin with a quick trip to the bank before I started clients. The weather was amazing so I grabbed my bike and got on the elevator headed for sucess. Halfway between the 2nd and 3rd floor the elevator stopped. I pressed every button multiple times with no luck. I pulled the emergency knob and it rang a bell. No one responed, no one came. I rang again. Nothing. I used the emergency dial box and spoke to a woman somewhere. I told her the address and she said a technition will come to "relieve me". I was hanging out in the elevator for twenty minutes. I tried and set my cycle computer's odometer. I then called a friend. When Vance picked up his work line we talk for a minute then I began to move. I safely arrived on the 1st floor and my day could begin. I missed the bank and ran late the whole day. Something is always up with me.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

De Quervain's Tensynovitis just in time for tour

I have been suffering minor to medium wrist pain since mid-December last year. I finally went to an orthopedist yesterday and was diagnosed with De Quervain's Tensynovitis.

"De Quervain's disease is a common form of tenosynovitis of the wrist, occurring frequently in racquet sports. This is an inflammation of the tendons of the abductor pollicus longus and extensor pollicus brevis as they pass through a tunnel at the level of the radial styloid. Repetitive ulnar deviation and griping can inflame these tendons in their closed space, resulting in pain when using the thumb, stiffness, and pinch weakness. Swelling and tenderness are present along the radial aspect of the wrist and follow the course of the tendons."

Wrist-DeQuervains

Tour starts next week which will be interesting. I had to buy a thumb/wrist brace to wear while not playing or massaging. I go into physical therapy the week I get home 3 times a week for a month. I'm commin' up so you better get this started!

Now availble with photos

My good friend jeff just walked me through the setup of a flikr account Blue Flame Media so I will begin to post photo's when appropriate. It will take me a while to get a hang of this so stick with me. If a photo looks to dark or off in anyway please let me know. i am scanning and toning using a laptop. Not ideal. Anyway this a photo taken in Montauk, NY back in march. The rest will be up over the next several weeks. Party!

Montauk Beach, NY

Monday, May 23, 2005

Marking Territory

Adams Morgan is not the best place to park in DC but it’s my hood and I have no choice. My truck has been broken into at least eight times over the past twelve months. Being a veteran of the break-in, I try not keep anything of value in the truck. Guys usually come in through the back window and unlock the door. Most likely they open the glove compartment next finding nothing but random papers then look behing the seat to find jumper cables and a skateboard. Disappointed, they move on empty handed and are sometimes polite enough to lock the doors behind them.

Last night was different. After the disappointment of finding nothing in the truck the dude smashed off my passenger’s side-view mirror! Then taxed me for lack of goods by pissing in the truck!!!! Welcome, come back any time!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Legs Ahoy!

Haveing a rare day with little responsibility, I decided to take a long bike ride. I started on Roosevelt Island outside of Georgetown and headed 40 miles northwest to Leesburg, VA on the W&OD trail. I stopped somewhere outside Ashburn, VA and watched a flock of vultures surround a cow. They just stood there as the cow mooed every now and then. I was hoping to witness some brutal nature savagery but got nothing. I watched in high anticipation for 5-10 minutes then got bored and took off towards Leesburg. Once in Leesburg I headed north to whites ferry to cross the Potomac. Once forged, I sat in the grass overlooking the river and ate a cup of brown rice with a jelly and soy-butter sandwich. I stretched and was back on the saddle headed towards home. I was exhausted and had 35 miles to go. The inside of my knees where throbing by this point and I was getting bored. I decided to take a break at the 50 mile mark but found a great place next to the river's edge a little before. I walked down to the river's bank and took a quick cat nap. 20 minutes later I was listening to Tipsy and cruising towards Great Falls at 12 miles an hour. God bless the Ipod. I got tired of Tipsy's animated instrumentals and switched to Metallica's Master of Puppets to get me though the exhaustion. I made it home just as Damaged Incorporated ended. I rode 75 miles in 6 hours 1 minute and 53 seconds averaging 12.4 miles/ hour. Good times. My legs and knees still ach. I wish the vultures would've killed the cow.

Monday, April 11, 2005

Remodeling

I have spent the psat 2 weekends painting and installing floors in my appartment. I will have a short on my bike trip to Long Island up soon.

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Brief Paragraph I Wrote For Shirts For a Cure

Mark Beemer, good friend of mine, runs a great cancer benifit called Shirts for a Cure where bands donate a shirt design and proceeds go to cancer research or related causes. My old band Frodus had a shirt go up this last week and this is what I wrote.

"In June 1999, I went with my then soon-to-be fiancée, Alanna Alindogan, to the doctor's office for results of tests concerning her recent stomach pains. The doctor wouldn't let me back with her since we weren't married, so I sat bored in the waiting room. A half-hour later, she walked out of the back dazed, grabbed my hand, and took me outside. Holding back tears, she looked into my eyes and ruined my life. "I have cancer." I held her as tightly as possible while she said over and over, "I don't want to die." I went numb and the only thought in my head was the end of a new Frodus song we had been
working on earlier that week. The depressing riff became the soundtrack for that devastating month and the song it became a part of was later named "6/99." We tried every type of medicine and treatment possible, from Chinese herbs and chemotherapy to natural medicine and experimental drugs. Alanna died nine months later on March 31st, 2000. Five years have gone by and my life has never been the same. I have slowly moved on but not forgotten. I learned more about life living
her nine-month death than living my previous 23 years.

Death and sickness can be the best and worst experiences for those of us left behind. It has the power to change, create, and heal, given the opportunity. I have found love a second time and will marry Jenny Mihn Luu on November 5th, 2005. God is good.

I have known Mark Beemer for years and he is the only person in my life that has experienced a similar tragedy. Alanna's cancer had no cure but science is always progressing. If buying a band's t-shirt will help find a cure for any type of cancer, I wear a medium."